"Are Transgender People Truly 1OO% Happier In There Lives After The Metamorphosis Lifestyle Change ?"
On this blog, i decided not to talk about sex like the addict that i am, and like i always post in most of my threads in the past, but rather i'm gonna post a serious topic, rather then a sexual cum fuck me now daddy masterbation fantasy one! Sorry boys,, maybe my next thread, lol. Ok,, where do i fucking start now?! Are transgender people truly 1OO% happy in there lives once they have completed there transistioned metamorphosis lifestyles in becoming the opposite sex? I know most of you tgirls who are reading this, would never dare to post anything personal about ur self, that might jepordize ur escort business, in which u may scare alot of clients away, so therefore would rather not discusse anything too private that may be harmfull then good. I myself ask myself, and many people have asked me as well, hey Barbie, now that u became a woman, well half way there with the boobs, are u happy now or were u happy before when u were a man?
And my awnser is, of course im more happy being who i am today, as a transgender female, but trust me, it was a long hard road out of hell to get myself into where i am today as a shemale, which all of u horny guys lust so much, and we're ur dirty little secret, ur forbidden fruit, that u may not talk about to ur friends or family members, due to being not proud, and in the closet & discrete about ur taboo desires for trannys. I must admit, i feel more comfortable under my own skin as a shemale, not wishing to one day become a full woman with a fake vagina, and those who are offended by me, please don't be, i'm just happy being a shemale, half and half, and others hate it, and wish to be a 100% female, and all the power to u girls, but im comfortable right now being a transsexual whore, lol!
I know many of u guys don't think about this, u only see the glamours side of shemales, but u never see the bad side of it, and the stuff other tgirls don't want u to know. I guess im the only shemale who is brave enough to just being honest, straight forward & gutsy to just set the record straight about m2f transgender people, are they truly happy from the inside. I'm not talking about the outer beauty, im talking about the inner beauty as well. I know for a fact that most trannys are very sad, depressed, miserable, lonley, anti-social, suidical, axiety problems, anorexia, lonley ect... Yea the same goes with normal people who are non-transgender people, but we have a higher rate of these symptons due to the negative treatment we have gone through to reach our goal into becoming women, and trust me it aint easy!
First of all, we go through so much drama in our lives, our parents, mom & dad, that u expect them to be there for us during our transistioned, are sometimes ashamed & embarresed by us, because of our alternitive lifestyles dressing like girls and living our lives 24/7 as one full time and sometimes part time too. They may be there for us, but majority of them are not very understanding at all with the difficulities we face as being born into the wrong body. They sometimes blame u for being possessed by the devil, or that we have went against god and we became sinners & wicked, and evil filled with narcassisticisim charateristics. Trust me when u have religous parents, they will love you but at the same time hate you too, cause they think what ur doing is going against the holy fucking bible.
I feel like im going around in circles right now, cause i have so much to say, but at the same time, i just wanna make it quick and fast and direct to the point so u can understand where im coming from as a transgender person. Yup, my life is not easy, i went through alot of bullshit, but then again who hasnt? I had to deal with xbf at the time cheating on me, i had to deal with my mother telling me i was going to hell for being a faggot he/she, i had to deal with being a shemale, i had to deal with the stigma discrimination i face everyday i face the world, the public for being a transsexual person, i have to deal with problems as a teenager, cause i was cross-dressing attending school and kids were giving me a hard time, and also other teachers as well. I had to deal with walking in on my mother about to have sex with her boyfriend at the time when i was 10 yrs old, which tramatized me, and my own view about sex today, lol. I had to deal with my school teacher emotionally verbally abusing me, which will be stuck in my head for life, that will never go away.
I had to deal with my cousin sexually molesting me as a child. Oh god, i can go on and on u know, but i rather just make it as simple and small as possible so u guys can see the inside world of mines, and perhaps other transsexuals too. I've met alot of shemales in my life, 3 of them are already dead and have past away, which im heart broken, cause they didnt deserve to die, but there lifestyle choices in being into drugs and other things, there lives went down hill with the wrong bad choices they've made. So the question is, are transsexuals trully 100% happy? I'm more happy as a tranny then as a boy, there no doubt about that, but at the same time i don't forget my past that has brought me into my present, which is today. I can't change the past but i can change the future into a positive road of life. Sometimes transsexuals think if they have more plastic surgeries they will feel more complete as a woman, and more happier and more passable.
And if i have sex with more guys, maybe i'll find mr right, a true lover, a boyfriend. Or if i continue getting high and drinking all the time, i'll forget about my problems and i'll be much more happier in life. Or if i go shopping all the time, and buy a few wigs, high heels, clothes, makeup, ect.. It will make me happy, but all these things are temporary happyness. Have you ever been alone, lying in ur bed, no distractions, and u say to ur self, am i really happy or am i just depressed and try to avoid it by doing all these things? Sometimes u feel an emptyness from inside, that no money or man can give u, well unless u found Jesus, which i didnt know he was lost in the first place, lol. Remember the eyes are the window to the soul, and u can see what a person is like, just on there energy & body language. Sure, nobody is perfect, everybody got problems, but it seems like transgender people have alot more issues then most normal people do.
I'm not trying to put down my own community, its just i don't see us as one happy community, it seems like we're always fighting with each other with stupid dumb jealousy, rather then helping each other out. I spoken to this gay guy, and he told me, that most trannys thats hes met, they seem just the same old miserable person even after there transistioned. I told him well, what do u expect, they feel like freaks, like aliens/ufos from another planet, and they feel like they are born into the wrong gender, so it would make logical sence why they are so sensitive and overly emotional, and to top it all off, them taking estrogen hormone pills, which causes them to act super sensitive to there feelings. So the question is, are u 1OO% happy with ur transistioned from male to female? And if so, explain why? Dose it make u happy that guys are finally showing u interest as a woman, rather then before as a man? What are the down sides of being a shemales ?
I've seen some talk shows, where some M2F transsexuals after 20 years go back to becoming the original man that they are, they said it was a mistake with what they did. Hopefully thats not gonna happen to me, which i highly doubt it. The only way i'd get very depressed is if i got a pussy and found out later im not happy with it cause its not working property and the hole is not deep enough for big monster cocks to fuck & rape my virginity! Anyways, please leave some feedback, and i'll try to respond them as soon as i can. I'm just curious about other transsexuals if they feel 100% happy now that they have crossed over the rainbow. Is the grass, greener on the other side, or do u feel the same like before? It's a proven fact that how u present ur self to the world, u get treated differently, based on the image u project, either male or female, fat or skinny, old or young, well the last part is not a choice, thats just time, lol. It seems like most people that work in the sex trade and even non transgender people, got alot more issues then regular people do. Ok boys & girls, hope u enjoyed reading my shit! Take care, muah!
B@rbie Swallows
www.BarbieSwallows.com



On this blog, i decided not to talk about sex like the addict that i am, and like i always post in most of my threads in the past, but rather i'm gonna post a serious topic, rather then a sexual cum fuck me now daddy masterbation fantasy one! Sorry boys,, maybe my next thread, lol. Ok,, where do i fucking start now?! Are transgender people truly 1OO% happy in there lives once they have completed there transistioned metamorphosis lifestyles in becoming the opposite sex? I know most of you tgirls who are reading this, would never dare to post anything personal about ur self, that might jepordize ur escort business, in which u may scare alot of clients away, so therefore would rather not discusse anything too private that may be harmfull then good. I myself ask myself, and many people have asked me as well, hey Barbie, now that u became a woman, well half way there with the boobs, are u happy now or were u happy before when u were a man?
And my awnser is, of course im more happy being who i am today, as a transgender female, but trust me, it was a long hard road out of hell to get myself into where i am today as a shemale, which all of u horny guys lust so much, and we're ur dirty little secret, ur forbidden fruit, that u may not talk about to ur friends or family members, due to being not proud, and in the closet & discrete about ur taboo desires for trannys. I must admit, i feel more comfortable under my own skin as a shemale, not wishing to one day become a full woman with a fake vagina, and those who are offended by me, please don't be, i'm just happy being a shemale, half and half, and others hate it, and wish to be a 100% female, and all the power to u girls, but im comfortable right now being a transsexual whore, lol!
I know many of u guys don't think about this, u only see the glamours side of shemales, but u never see the bad side of it, and the stuff other tgirls don't want u to know. I guess im the only shemale who is brave enough to just being honest, straight forward & gutsy to just set the record straight about m2f transgender people, are they truly happy from the inside. I'm not talking about the outer beauty, im talking about the inner beauty as well. I know for a fact that most trannys are very sad, depressed, miserable, lonley, anti-social, suidical, axiety problems, anorexia, lonley ect... Yea the same goes with normal people who are non-transgender people, but we have a higher rate of these symptons due to the negative treatment we have gone through to reach our goal into becoming women, and trust me it aint easy!
First of all, we go through so much drama in our lives, our parents, mom & dad, that u expect them to be there for us during our transistioned, are sometimes ashamed & embarresed by us, because of our alternitive lifestyles dressing like girls and living our lives 24/7 as one full time and sometimes part time too. They may be there for us, but majority of them are not very understanding at all with the difficulities we face as being born into the wrong body. They sometimes blame u for being possessed by the devil, or that we have went against god and we became sinners & wicked, and evil filled with narcassisticisim charateristics. Trust me when u have religous parents, they will love you but at the same time hate you too, cause they think what ur doing is going against the holy fucking bible.
I feel like im going around in circles right now, cause i have so much to say, but at the same time, i just wanna make it quick and fast and direct to the point so u can understand where im coming from as a transgender person. Yup, my life is not easy, i went through alot of bullshit, but then again who hasnt? I had to deal with xbf at the time cheating on me, i had to deal with my mother telling me i was going to hell for being a faggot he/she, i had to deal with being a shemale, i had to deal with the stigma discrimination i face everyday i face the world, the public for being a transsexual person, i have to deal with problems as a teenager, cause i was cross-dressing attending school and kids were giving me a hard time, and also other teachers as well. I had to deal with walking in on my mother about to have sex with her boyfriend at the time when i was 10 yrs old, which tramatized me, and my own view about sex today, lol. I had to deal with my school teacher emotionally verbally abusing me, which will be stuck in my head for life, that will never go away.
I had to deal with my cousin sexually molesting me as a child. Oh god, i can go on and on u know, but i rather just make it as simple and small as possible so u guys can see the inside world of mines, and perhaps other transsexuals too. I've met alot of shemales in my life, 3 of them are already dead and have past away, which im heart broken, cause they didnt deserve to die, but there lifestyle choices in being into drugs and other things, there lives went down hill with the wrong bad choices they've made. So the question is, are transsexuals trully 100% happy? I'm more happy as a tranny then as a boy, there no doubt about that, but at the same time i don't forget my past that has brought me into my present, which is today. I can't change the past but i can change the future into a positive road of life. Sometimes transsexuals think if they have more plastic surgeries they will feel more complete as a woman, and more happier and more passable.
And if i have sex with more guys, maybe i'll find mr right, a true lover, a boyfriend. Or if i continue getting high and drinking all the time, i'll forget about my problems and i'll be much more happier in life. Or if i go shopping all the time, and buy a few wigs, high heels, clothes, makeup, ect.. It will make me happy, but all these things are temporary happyness. Have you ever been alone, lying in ur bed, no distractions, and u say to ur self, am i really happy or am i just depressed and try to avoid it by doing all these things? Sometimes u feel an emptyness from inside, that no money or man can give u, well unless u found Jesus, which i didnt know he was lost in the first place, lol. Remember the eyes are the window to the soul, and u can see what a person is like, just on there energy & body language. Sure, nobody is perfect, everybody got problems, but it seems like transgender people have alot more issues then most normal people do.
I'm not trying to put down my own community, its just i don't see us as one happy community, it seems like we're always fighting with each other with stupid dumb jealousy, rather then helping each other out. I spoken to this gay guy, and he told me, that most trannys thats hes met, they seem just the same old miserable person even after there transistioned. I told him well, what do u expect, they feel like freaks, like aliens/ufos from another planet, and they feel like they are born into the wrong gender, so it would make logical sence why they are so sensitive and overly emotional, and to top it all off, them taking estrogen hormone pills, which causes them to act super sensitive to there feelings. So the question is, are u 1OO% happy with ur transistioned from male to female? And if so, explain why? Dose it make u happy that guys are finally showing u interest as a woman, rather then before as a man? What are the down sides of being a shemales ?
I've seen some talk shows, where some M2F transsexuals after 20 years go back to becoming the original man that they are, they said it was a mistake with what they did. Hopefully thats not gonna happen to me, which i highly doubt it. The only way i'd get very depressed is if i got a pussy and found out later im not happy with it cause its not working property and the hole is not deep enough for big monster cocks to fuck & rape my virginity! Anyways, please leave some feedback, and i'll try to respond them as soon as i can. I'm just curious about other transsexuals if they feel 100% happy now that they have crossed over the rainbow. Is the grass, greener on the other side, or do u feel the same like before? It's a proven fact that how u present ur self to the world, u get treated differently, based on the image u project, either male or female, fat or skinny, old or young, well the last part is not a choice, thats just time, lol. It seems like most people that work in the sex trade and even non transgender people, got alot more issues then regular people do. Ok boys & girls, hope u enjoyed reading my shit! Take care, muah!
B@rbie Swallows
www.BarbieSwallows.com



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