Taking the plunge

[kokinme]

Two previous experiences have whetted my craving for a true shemale. My heart pounds and body shudders when ever I think about it; I am thinking often (almost all the time). My first time was with, I think, a crossdresser over 30 years ago. He was more hairy than I but I must admit I remember enjoying the oral both ways. The second was about 2 years ago responding to a newspaper ad. On the phone he sounded feminine so I decided to meet. He was much like the first time but again I enjoyed the oral. I am the submissive type and have visited a dominatrix several times. I enjoyed these sessions, especially the strapon. With the dominatrix I miss the intimacy, touch and feel of a sensuous woman. I have realized that a shemale has everything and I have started to look for the shemale of my dreams and I am finding that this will not be easy given the number of beautiful ladies (eg. Shemalecanada.com) the difficulty will be in choosing. While I search I have also concluded that the most sensous people on this earth must be shemales; the only thing better than a shemale can only be another one. The thought of being in the company of one excites me more than I ever have been before. I find myself questioning my own sexuality and whether to begin living the life. I look forward to any comments.