Out of patience, out of time

[Foxy Basket]

I'm going on hiatus for a couple of weeks. I need to fuck off and get the fuck out of school before I can deal with any more of this. I'm too stressed from exams and term papers, too sick of stupid arguments, too exhausted from getting upset over all this pointless drivel.

I've made a few major decisions today, and one of them is to get the fuck away from this forum while I put my plans in place. I'm not going to respond to any PMs, e-mails or texts until Easter weekend is over with.

This forum is no longer a place for intellegent discussion, nor for the "trans community" (if there is such a thing) to talk about stuff that's important to us. It's a place for hobbyists, transexualists, and clients to swap stories about their latest conquests. There's no "Health & Safety" forum, no "Bad Date" list, no "Transition Support" area - it's not for tgirls, it's for everyone but. It's like the tgirl version of TERB, and I'm sick of being the only bitch complaining about it. Constantly swimming upstream wears you down after a while; now, I'm just going to go with the flow.

I'm going to use it the way that it's meant used - as a tool for self-promotion, and nothing more. I've got three months of free banner space coming once I've won the hockey pool, and I'm going to make sure I put that to good use. Admin, I'll e-mail you about the details, as well as a few other things we should discuss.

For what it's worth, I still think you're doing a good job; you're making the space as accessible as possible, to as many as possible. And it's not as if us girls make it easy on you - we're always bitching about one thing or another, if we're not actively bitching at each other. You have to cater to your clientele, and there are a lot more of you than there are of us.

You're right about one thing, Admin; try as I might to convince you people otherwise, I'm still just an object to most of you. I know it's not true of everyone, but those are the extreme exceptions to the rule. Even those who treat me well in person still objectify me by definition.

I was fooling myself to think otherwise, but now I think of it like this - if I'm going to be objectified, I might as well make myself into the most-attractive, most-available, and most-accessible object on the market. I've always had a knack for economic theory, so now it's time to put that into practice.

Cynical? Certainly.

Melodramatic? Maybe.

Realistic? Hopefully.

Gone?





Definitely.

[O'C]

Out of patience, your out of time.

Nikki:
That could be a start to a new song! Hey take some time to clear your head, I hope to see you back real soon. [enjoy your posts]


O'C

[kristopin]

if you are so am i

Nikki,
i have respected you for a long time now. I know i gave you a heavy burden to carry. I simply owe you my life . but enough said. you need to get you univeristy stuff done so you can defien your futur. that has to be number one.

well if you are going so am i. i have always told you i am your friend. i will always be here for you. you know hoe to reach me. if you need help. if you need a shoulder.

in the mean time then.
cheers all it has been a blast.

luv you all. see you somewhere on the sunny side.

going. going. gone.

admin if you would dump my threads posts and all that shit.

oh yes by the way the tellers saga was this forum and all its characters.

gotta go. wont be back.

[tslisaparadise]

Nikki,
i have respected you for a long time now. I know i gave you a heavy burden to carry. I simply owe you my life . but enough said. you need to get you univeristy stuff done so you can defien your futur. that has to be number one.

well if you are going so am i. i have always told you i am your friend. i will always be here for you. you know hoe to reach me. if you need help. if you need a shoulder.

in the mean time then.
cheers all it has been a blast.

luv you all. see you somewhere on the sunny side.

going. going. gone.

admin if you would dump my threads posts and all that shit.

oh yes by the way the tellers saga was this forum and all its characters.

gotta go. wont be back.

listen,this is silly behavior by the both of you,.this is a forum where all kinds of people reside to give there opinions as well as the shady characters who would like nothin better but to stomp on your face every chance they get. this is entertainment only its not real life but more like a place for the low lifes to come in and bitch.admin will never change period nor will the guys who seem to think they actually matter in a forum where the only connection is a username.nikki your never gonna change anything or anyone in a forum like this thats for another forum not here.you will be a very good leader in the trans world one day this i have no doubt but you have to remember to fight the fights worth fighting for and this forum isnt one of them trust me ive stood up and fought for everything i believed in and for every freakin girl in here time after time after time,i used to think this was my home away from home till i realized after like my 10th time banned that this forum will never change sipmply cause the powers to be wont let it change and no matter how much we try it boils down to the fact that its now our forum its theres and were all just visiters.

[snoodle]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d1RcR...eature=related

[capitus]

listen,this is silly behavior by the both of you,.this is a forum where all kinds of people reside to give there opinions as well as the shady characters who would like nothin better but to stomp on your face every chance they get. this is entertainment only its not real life but more like a place for the low lifes to come in and bitch.admin will never change period nor will the guys who seem to think they actually matter in a forum where the only connection is a username.nikki your never gonna change anything or anyone in a forum like this thats for another forum not here.you will be a very good leader in the trans world one day this i have no doubt but you have to remember to fight the fights worth fighting for and this forum isnt one of them trust me ive stood up and fought for everything i believed in and for every freakin girl in here time after time after time,i used to think this was my home away from home till i realized after like my 10th time banned that this forum will never change sipmply cause the powers to be wont let it change and no matter how much we try it boils down to the fact that its now our forum its theres and were all just visiters.

Wise words Lisa.
Nikki, real issues will never be solved here or any other virtual space for that matter because there is no culpability; people act very differently when they are anonymous (i.e. Zimbardo, 1973; Milgram, 1963). You're a bright girl, I think you know how to affect change and appear to be doing it (your conference, your thesis, etc.). Your dropping off this board will affect no one but those who want to hear what you have to say. I hope you reconsider, but if not I wish you the best of luck in your studies and your future.

[Ana]

Just to make things clear this is not an attack against Nikki but why do people feel the need to post they are taking time away from the forum? I just dont really understand why and what outcome they expect of these type of threads

[capitus]

Just to make things clear this is not an attack against Nikki but why do people feel the need to post they are taking time away from the forum? I just dont really understand why and what outcome they expect of these type of threads

I would guess that it is a means of protest or statement of frustration. By saying they are leaving, rather than simply leaving, it makes their absence known. How many times has someone not posted on a board for a couple of months before someone says "Hey, where has so-and-so been?". By putting an exclamation point on one's leaving, everyone knows the score.

...either that or they are just hammered. Like, super drunk.

but I'm just guessing.

[kristopin]

e m o t i o n s

it is an emotinal statement and possible reaching out for support.

we have all been there.

christ i have for the last year.

but tick tock its still ticking and so am i.

muahhhhh to all.

sometimes we just get down. but when we are up we are so up.
(ohh that sounds naughty)

[Foxy Basket]

Sorry everyone

Just came back briefly to apologize for getting upset last week. Seems like I don't deal with stress very well. . . and I don't deal with disappointment very well either. Funny thing, though - sometimes a perceived setback actually gives rise to better alternative, and a rejection becomes an opportunity.

Sorry if I'm being cryptic, but I don't want to say anything until the details have been worked out; plus I still have three exams and a paper left before it's all said and done.

Ana, you ask a valid question, which capitus answered quite well. First, it was my way of telling people in other threads that I wasn't going to continue those conversations further, and not to expect any replies. Secondly, it was my somewhat-childish way of expressing my frustration. As Lisa correctly pointed out, this forum isn't real life, but when real life is pissing you off, sometimes it's easier - and often safer - to take your anger out on your computer instead.

Regardless, I've managed to screw my head back on straight, and refocus on finishing the year on a high note. Thanks for putting up with me.

P.S. Please take a look at my new thread, I'd really appreciate whatever feedback you can provide - it's for my term paper due next week, and I'm still missing a few points; I think there are many forum members who provide valuable input. Thanks so much!

[toban]

No apology necessary

. . . . .Regardless, I've managed to screw my head back on straight, and refocus on finishing the year on a high note. Thanks for putting up with me.

P.S. Please take a look at my new thread, I'd really appreciate whatever feedback you can provide - it's for my term paper due next week, and I'm still missing a few points that I think the forum members can provide. Thanks!

Nikki, it was obvious that your capacitors were severely overloaded and they blew up on you. Everyone is entitled to let go once in a while - especially when no damage is done.

[Ana]

Ana, you ask a valid question, which capitus answered quite well. First, it was my way of telling people in other threads that I wasn't going to continue those conversations further, and not to expect any replies. Secondly, it was my somewhat-childish way of expressing my frustration. As Lisa correctly pointed out, this forum isn't real life, but when real life is pissing you off, sometimes it's easier - and often safer - to take your anger out on your computer instead.

lol yes i suppose youre right... I was waiting for your response since it was your post but thanks to those who replied!

[capitus]

So, we can conclude:

University + Exams = Stress
Booze + University = Common
(Stress*Booze)/(exams*Uni)+ π = Frustrated Reaction

Thus, we can only conclude you were sauced. It is simple logic...I learned that in University between binges.

Glad to have you back.

[Foxy Basket]

So, we can conclude:

University + Exams = Stress
Booze + University = Common
(Stress*Booze)/(exams*Uni)+ π = Frustrated Reaction

Thus, we can only conclude you were sauced. It is simple logic...I learned that in University between binges.

Glad to have you back.

Perhaps, but correlation does not equal causality. . . plus you're ignoring a very important confounding variable - coherence of writing.

Booze + Keyboard = spelling mistakes
Nikki + Writing = obsessive perfectionism
Nikki + Booze /= coherent writing

While booze consumption can be positively correlated with an increase in stress, this does not suggest that stress necessarily has a causal relationship with intake of booze. Thus, given the generally-coherent nature of my melodrama, we can only conclude that stress and frustration result in stupid posts, independent of the booze intake variable.

However, let me propose another model:

Nikki + completion of degree = consumption of (x) amounts of booze
Solve for (x): How much booze can Nikki consume before she passes out?

In an attempt to discover the answer to this age-old question, I'll be conducting this experiment on April 9th, at Goodhandy's and other bars in the city. If you'd like to participate, and perhaps contribute to (x) then feel free to join me in celebration on Thursday. Plus, you'll get to see the results of the experiment before anyone else does.

It's also the day before Good Friday - which means you have no work the next day, and no excuse not to be there! Except Capitus, who lives a long way away. . . so, you're off the hook (this time, anyways!) but the rest of you had better show up!

[capitus]

It's also the day before Good Friday - which means you have no work the next day, and no excuse not to be there! Except Capitus, who lives a long way away. . . so, you're off the hook (this time, anyways!) but the rest of you had better show up!

Not to worry, there is a statistically significant chance (p>.001) that I will be juiced then as well. As such, I will think of you and your research study!!