Advice for somebody who just fell flat on her ass?

[Tonia Lee]

Girls, need some advice in a bad way. Also, guys that work in this field... please share some insight.
A while back I was contacted by Grooby Ent. regarding a modeling shoot in VA. I was exited about it and thought of every possible way to set aside money, cut expense and touch up on my transition. I figured I could get some hair removal done aside from electrolysis. That fell through first. I was unable, not that I think it's a make or break fucking thing considering I have so little, to get the time let alone money to do that.
Next thing I know, after setting up who would care for Amanda (my KITTEH), time off from work and transportation, I have NO MONEY to get to VA.
So, in a sense I am so poor that I can not earn extra income to settle some debts.
(or at least get them the fuck off my ass)
I told the person who contacted me, "I will do everything in my power."
Fucking FAILED. I just sent him an e-mail explaining just how hard my life is now.
That's not his problem, he just wants a chick that can and will do the shoot. I understand that.
What can I do? My credit report is in the abyss now. My income is a joke.
I need an option. I need to somehow find a way to model, provide content and at the same time EAT.
I figured on this web cam site that they just set up. They wrote me about it and it seemed fun so I guess I can do that for a while.
I know I am not as busty as the other girls that do that. My hair sucks and I'm not all that pretty... not by ANY MEANS but I think (maybe) I could do that and just play it by ear for some time.
I really made a fool of myself. I was the one who contacted him and asked if I could do the shoot.
Fuck if my life does not suck epic dick. I'm so sick of having this rough, tension filled, sleep deprived life of poverty.
Any advice is very much appreciated, thank you.

[tslisaparadise]

girls, need some advice in a bad way. Also, guys that work in this field... Please share some insight.
A while back i was contacted by grooby ent. Regarding a modeling shoot in va. I was exited about it and thought of every possible way to set aside money, cut expense and touch up on my transition. I figured i could get some hair removal done aside from electrolysis. That fell through first. I was unable, not that i think it's a make or break fucking thing considering i have so little, to get the time let alone money to do that.
Next thing i know, after setting up who would care for amanda (my kitteh), time off from work and transportation, i have no money to get to va.
So, in a sense i am so poor that i can not earn extra income to settle some debts.
(or at least get them the fuck off my ass)
i told the person who contacted me, "i will do everything in my power."
fucking failed. I just sent him an e-mail explaining just how hard my life is now.
That's not his problem, he just wants a chick that can and will do the shoot. I understand that.
What can i do? My credit report is in the abyss now. My income is a joke.
I need an option. I need to somehow find a way to model, provide content and at the same time eat.
I figured on this web cam site that they just set up. They wrote me about it and it seemed fun so i guess i can do that for a while.
I know i am not as busty as the other girls that do that. My hair sucks and i'm not all that pretty... Not by any means but i think (maybe) i could do that and just play it by ear for some time.
I really made a fool of myself. I was the one who contacted him and asked if i could do the shoot.
Fuck if my life does not suck epic dick. I'm so sick of having this rough, tension filled, sleep deprived life of poverty.
Any advice is very much appreciated, thank you.

your less then what 3 hours to toronto driving?youll spend a couple hundred in gas and only make 300 since a shoot pays out 500 why is it a big deel to pose for yum?300 bucks is pocket change for the day.

[Tonia Lee]

your less then what 3 hours to toronto driving?youll spend a couple hundred in gas and only make 300 since a shoot pays out 500 why is it a big deel to pose for yum?300 bucks is pocket change for the day.

Pocket change?
Are you fucking kidding me?
I hate to say this on a public forum but I lost all respect for you. What kind of statement is that? You would not survive a month in my life nor recover from it.
I just had every bit of money taken from me in the past two months in one shot with threats of throwing me into the streets. I just recovered from a sex crime and don't even have the money for therapy to talk about that.
No money and my goals tossed in the trash. I transitioned with my food money.
Thanks for the contribution and advice. That 300$ is the difference between having my wages garnished or staying afloat so I can keep my doctor.
Whatever.

[kick2000]

how are you my love tonia

[Tonia Lee]

how are you my love tonia

LOL Hi, baby. <3
I don't know... I'm trying to figure all this out and at some point I'll have to stand my ground to keep my life together. I wish I was in Canada. I was just talking to a friend of mine, a FtM passable trans guy, and he said that he was considering moving to Canada.
I was surprised and I remarked on this forum and how much I envy the Canadian girls.
I go back to work tonight and I'll be doing a six night stretch but if I can make some extra time after everybody takes off, I can pull off a few hours over time.
I need to be careful, they keep close tabs on the clock milkers.
If you have not seen my pics post, I did manage to get goal in skin and hair care. All of it natural, no bullshit... I make my own hair cleanser and skin softener!
I had kicked smoking for a few days but fell back when the creditors began making threats.

All I have done thus far is contact ADMIN at Shemaleyum.com to ask if any other options are available to me at this point and if I'm still being accepted.
I can only hope for the best.

LOL Amanda say's "Meow".

[Einstein]

I suggest you invest in you're education .. ........

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yJl0XuDKSjc

[tsKITANA]

HI Tonia,
yes, like the guy that posted above. Why not invest on school?

If that doesnt work for you, why not get a second job for another flowing second income to get you by.

[Tonia Lee]

HI Tonia,
yes, like the guy that posted above. Why not invest on school?

If that doesnt work for you, why not get a second job for another flowing second income to get you by.

Hun, I just can't. I have to get into some kind of good standing with these creditors before I get in deep shit.
They could screw me bad and WILL.
I'm going to do the web cam thing. I have confidence enough to to do that so... I may as well.

Your very pretty, by the way.

When I responded to Lisa, I didn't want to hold back what really needed to be said. The city I live in was once a thriving place. When the mills crashed and the steel left many fell into debt and now this place is a fucking hole in PA.
Monesson is way worse and only a hop skip away. Those junkies and bangers come from all directions. You can not go out at night. The police try to keep it stable but drugs are all over regardless and I hate this kind of community.
I hate drugs, to be honest.

I'm not in the fucking Bronx like my dad was but you know.... it's bad. Some chick was found beaten to death in a dumpster right behind my house half a block away about a year ago.
Babe, I was going on hormones at this time and I am the only transsexual for miles.
Imagine that shit. Your lost in debt, forced to stay home in fear and breaking down.

So, here she comes with "pocket money". Dude, screw her. You can't even have nice wheels here. They will jack all your shit so fast.

I just want to move to Canada. For real.

[Rockheart]

Hopefully if I pay for the gas, Lisa will drive me there and I will do a shoot of you for Grooby and maybe some other stuff.

However I am currently financially deprived myself, so and cannot say it would be immediately. JULY?

Your job would be to find at least one other model for me in the Pitt.

that's the best i can offer.

[Navi]

baawww some more about it

[tslisaparadise]

Pocket change?
Are you fucking kidding me?
I hate to say this on a public forum but I lost all respect for you. What kind of statement is that? You would not survive a month in my life nor recover from it.
I just had every bit of money taken from me in the past two months in one shot with threats of throwing me into the streets. I just recovered from a sex crime and don't even have the money for therapy to talk about that.
No money and my goals tossed in the trash. I transitioned with my food money.
Thanks for the contribution and advice. That 300$ is the difference between having my wages garnished or staying afloat so I can keep my doctor.
Whatever.

i can see the therapy's working well for ya

[sensual_lover20]

By any means possible get out of where you are now and start a new life somewhere else where it is reasonable to live. Say you are going on vacation andjust don't come back. Trying find an older guy who is interested in you to help you get back on your feet. There are several of them. You will likely have to perform some sexual favours for them. However, in a way you will be taking advantage of him too. Do not tell him about your past. Find a part time job and start to save up some money. Mcdonald's or Tim Hortons hires nearly every week. At night try to escort on outcalls using free websites and build some funds. Look for a full time job constantly where you do not need much education, such as a secretary. You can continue to escort for pocket change. Grow from there and transition better. I think it is feasible.

[Horizon1]

baawww some more about it

^

[tsKITANA]

i can see the therapy's working well for ya

lol, oh lisa. i adore u.

[Tonia Lee]

I registered with Imlive.com. I'm very exited to start. Thursday and Friday night I will be on... all night so, I hope to see some forum members showing support.
...and watching me use anal toys.
Very cool. Good shit.
I'll post when I go on.