When I think about how bad it is to be smoking on Estrace and how much it fucks up my skin and hair, I have all the reason I need to stop smoking.
It's a financial burden, I apply nice perfume and RUIN it, I have smoker lines when I'm only thirty-two, I get tired and have no energy, my motive at work is "when is my next smoke break, I pay like... five fuck'n buck a day!!!!!
Let's see.... it's killing my lungs, hair, skin, nails...
But, so help me God, I can't stop.
I tried. I tried so MANY times. I have been a smoker since I was a young teenager and my mother is a heavy smoker as well.
I hate buying them. I pay my money so that all this shit can do is hurt me.
Why?
I go through so much effort for modeling. I use every trick in the book from hair care to making my skin clear and soft only to see about 20% of that application GONE.
It looks bad on cam. Some like it as a fetish but if I'm hosting and smoking, it looks like I don't care about my presentation. Therefor, I find it "unprofessional".
Plus, l I have to put out my smoke and do this or do that. That looks sloppy and that's time spent wasted.
My house is a smokers house. I know that if I walk into a home of a clean homemaker and the house is free of smoking, it looks wonderful and smells good.
So, money....
Looking good, free from addiction, better health, better teeth, nicer hair and nails, clear skin, fresh breath.... these are all the reasons to stop.
Girls, I CAN'T. I SWEAR I just can't get past that three day mark.
Iv'e tried cold turkey, nic gums and patches and even mind games to stop.
Nothing worked.
What can I do to stop?
How do I quit for good?
Others have done it, so can I. Right?
I'm going to try cold turkey on the 23rd again. My plan is to stop while I'm hosting.
I figure if I keep myself busy and don't have time to smoke I won't.
If anybody has any advice, please share.
It's a financial burden, I apply nice perfume and RUIN it, I have smoker lines when I'm only thirty-two, I get tired and have no energy, my motive at work is "when is my next smoke break, I pay like... five fuck'n buck a day!!!!!
Let's see.... it's killing my lungs, hair, skin, nails...
But, so help me God, I can't stop.
I tried. I tried so MANY times. I have been a smoker since I was a young teenager and my mother is a heavy smoker as well.
I hate buying them. I pay my money so that all this shit can do is hurt me.
Why?
I go through so much effort for modeling. I use every trick in the book from hair care to making my skin clear and soft only to see about 20% of that application GONE.
It looks bad on cam. Some like it as a fetish but if I'm hosting and smoking, it looks like I don't care about my presentation. Therefor, I find it "unprofessional".
Plus, l I have to put out my smoke and do this or do that. That looks sloppy and that's time spent wasted.
My house is a smokers house. I know that if I walk into a home of a clean homemaker and the house is free of smoking, it looks wonderful and smells good.
So, money....
Looking good, free from addiction, better health, better teeth, nicer hair and nails, clear skin, fresh breath.... these are all the reasons to stop.
Girls, I CAN'T. I SWEAR I just can't get past that three day mark.
Iv'e tried cold turkey, nic gums and patches and even mind games to stop.
Nothing worked.
What can I do to stop?
How do I quit for good?
Others have done it, so can I. Right?
I'm going to try cold turkey on the 23rd again. My plan is to stop while I'm hosting.
I figure if I keep myself busy and don't have time to smoke I won't.
If anybody has any advice, please share.
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