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"I Had A Weird Dream A Few Nights Ago About My Killer X-Boyfriend Luka Magnotta"
"I Had A Weird Dream A Few Nights Ago About My Killer X-Boyfriend Luka Magnotta"
So in this dream, my xbf Luka Magnotta was at my house, after he commited the crime, the murder, the killing, and he was staying and chilling at my place. He seemed to be normal, calmed, and chilled and all relaxed watching tv. Now in my mind, i was like what the fuck, why is he at my house, and why am i allowing this mental case to be hiding out here. I was like, he could snap and kill me too. And so i was debating, if i should call the cops or not and report that he's hiding at my place or not. And in my dream me and my xbf were having normal conversations. I remembered i asked him if ur gonna kill me too, and he said of course not. Anyways i cant remember all the details of this fucking dream, but i just thought it would be some what entertaining for you guys to read that the xgf Barbie Swallows had a dream a few nights ago of Luka Magnotta.
On the side note, i still find it very strange and wierd, that i dated a guy 6yrs ago, that turned out to be a fucking killer. Did i know he was gonna do this? Nope. Did i had a feeling he might snap and become a killer? A little yes. Why do i say this. Well, you see when i was staying at his apartment at the yonge/eglinton area, sleeping over for about 2 and half weeks, you get to know the person a whole lot more. So i saw him wake up in the morning, going to sleep, having sex with clients, while being told to hide in his closet, lol. Anyways, the reason why im a bit not surprised that he became a killer is the simple fact that he was so into the whole Paul Barnardo & Karla Hamolka story. He would watch videos of them on youtube, and he would talk about them as if they were his role models or something, which i found to be a little wierd & strange u know. So i said to myself, in my mind, but to Luka, cause i didn't want him to freak out or turn against me or something. But i said to myself,, hmmmm, i wonder if one day he'll turn out to be a killer.
Cause as a transgender person, we tend to always be some what pyshic connected and we tend to listen to our inner thoughts and voices. Well i'm happy i got payed for that interview i did, but i pretty much spent the $3500 cheque in just only 1 month, lol. How funny eh? I made that in just 1 hour, and i spent it in just 1 month. Oh well it was good while it lasted u know. I had a cop car that pulled me over a few nights ago, cause i was riding without any lights on, and on the sidewalk, which is apparently against the law. They asked me what my name is, so i just gave them my health card id. I told them i never been in jail before but my xbf has. There like oh yea, what did he do? Im like well, u probaly already know him or have heard of him, but hes in Montreal right now in Jail. It's that Luka Magnotta guy. They were surprised and blown away. Im like no joke, im serious, thats my xbf. I was like if u don't believe me just go on the internet on google and type in Luka Magnotta Transsexual Barbie and u can read my story interview i did. Or if u like, i can show u a picture of me and him on my cell phone.
So the cop comes out of his car, with this big smile on his face, and hes like oh this i gotta see. So i showed them the picture, and they asked me why my eyes are blacked out. I was like well after i broke up with him, i noticed he had our photo together posted on one of his youtube videos, and i emailed him asking him to remove it but instead he just blacked out my eyes. What a typical narcassistic thing to do, lol. Anyways they kept asking me all these questions about my xbf Luka Magnotta, they were so entertained that they forgot why they pulled me over in the first place, loll. I was like so am i still gonna get that ticket? He said well we were about to give u one, but and they just decided not too, cause i guess apparently im a celebrity for dating killer Luka Magnotta, or something lol. Anyways, i feel bad that he had to kill that innocent man, just to become well known and famous. I know he did this for attention, theres no doubt in my mind, he did this cause he was mad at him or anything. He was just looking for an easy target and i guess he found one and decided to make a sick twisted video of him too while cutting him up, eating him, and havinig sex with the dead body without the head, arms or legs. Which is pretty sick to be honest.
I regret thousand times, watching that sick video online, cause the images will forever be in my mind now. When i was watching this video, i said to myself, u know that could have been me, cause i remember he wanted to tie me up as well on his bed while i was staying with him, but i told him i don't feel comfortable doing that sort of thing. I feel like im some what reborn again, like i have a second chance of living, cause i could have been the victim, and unaware of his mental sick behaviours, and he could have done this to me. I think my mother would die from a heart attack, cause shes so sensitive, i don't think she could take this news so well u know. Poor Jun Lin, his family must be suffering alot. People often ask me, if i'll ever go in Montreal, and visit my xbf Luka Magnotta, and talk to him. At first it was hell no, but it would be interesting to meet him again after 6yrs later after i broke up with him to see whats up with him. But at the same time, i feel so disgusted talking to him knowing what he did, the murder. You see when we were in a 4 month relationship, it was great, it was boring, it was depressing, it was up & down, kinda like a roller coaster.
He was very sweet and romantic, he would always hold my hand while he was driving his car or if we were watching movies together on top of ordering pizza nightly thing. I knew he had problems, but i didn't know it was so bad he was gonna blow up one day. Even when i wasn't sleeping over his place, he would surprise me and show up outside my house, just to take a drive, and hold my hand and just tell me he has very strong feelings for me. I rememeber he bought me a Big Mac, from McDonalds, and i asked him if he told them to put extra lettuce and tomatoe on it, he said no. I was like fuck. Silly me, i didnt appreciate the nice things people would do for me. So he got a little upset, so i was calmed him down, and kissed him and thanked him for it. He would get upset for small things i noticed. Anyways, he must have still been into me, cause after we broke up, i noticed he was copying & pasting my stories i posted in the past here on tgirlforums and he would post them under his name on other sites. I found that kinda wierd, that he was reading all my shit after we broke up. He must have been a very lonley guy, and must have obviously been living most of his life online, rather then hanging out with friends.
I remember one time, i was watching tv at his place, around 4am, and he woke up in the living room on the next sofa he was sitting on, and he gave me this really nervous, scared confued look and he said to me, who are u? Im like, Luka, lol,, its me Barbie, don't u remember me? U picked me up earlier. He was like oh and then he went back to sleep. The relationship with him was very wierd. He was cold one minute and the next minute u would just love to be around him. He was always generous, always taking me out to places, buying me things. But he avoided sex, cause he told me he had to get to know me better. He said whenever he has sex with his former gfs, they would leave him right away, and he would never hear from them again. I guess he was worried of loosing his gf, after we had sex. I reminded him the first night we met we had sex during the 3some with Nader, a guy i used to go to high school, and he said well that was different, cause now i got strong feelings for u. I remember he one day he was like i gotta tell u something Barbie, im like what? He's like promsie ur not gonna tell anybody, im like ok. He said when i was a teenager i had sex with my mother. Im like oh really. Was this ur step mother or ur biological mother, hes like my real mom.
Im like did it happened more then once? He said yea. I was shocked, and also some what disgusted but at the same time i don't think it was his fault, i think she took advanage of him, so it was kinda like rape. But at the same time, he could have been lying, cause people that are mentally disturbed tend to make up false stories. I can go on and on and on, about more details about our relationship, but i think i'll save all that info on a autobiography book one day. Anyways, im just really sad, that he turned out to be a killer, cause he was still a good guy deep down inside, but he was just in a total fucking mess. Perhaps he was possessed by demonic evil spirits. Sometimes, they influence people to do bad things. He told me he always wanted to be famous, and one day he will become famous, even though he told me once, he wanted to go to school and become a cop, lol. I guess that never happened. He did say, he had a client that was a police officer, and he saw his uniform in his closet when he was at his place. So there u go, even cops, pay prostitudes during there off time, lol. Anyways, i think Luka wanted to get caught sooner or later. I think he enjoyed all this hide and seek, cat & mouse game, running away, and doing small mistakes in hopes he'd get caught. I wonder if my xbf Luka Magnotta, will ever make it into heaven after he dies. Only God knows...
B@rbie Swallows
www.BarbieSwallows.com
So in this dream, my xbf Luka Magnotta was at my house, after he commited the crime, the murder, the killing, and he was staying and chilling at my place. He seemed to be normal, calmed, and chilled and all relaxed watching tv. Now in my mind, i was like what the fuck, why is he at my house, and why am i allowing this mental case to be hiding out here. I was like, he could snap and kill me too. And so i was debating, if i should call the cops or not and report that he's hiding at my place or not. And in my dream me and my xbf were having normal conversations. I remembered i asked him if ur gonna kill me too, and he said of course not. Anyways i cant remember all the details of this fucking dream, but i just thought it would be some what entertaining for you guys to read that the xgf Barbie Swallows had a dream a few nights ago of Luka Magnotta.
On the side note, i still find it very strange and wierd, that i dated a guy 6yrs ago, that turned out to be a fucking killer. Did i know he was gonna do this? Nope. Did i had a feeling he might snap and become a killer? A little yes. Why do i say this. Well, you see when i was staying at his apartment at the yonge/eglinton area, sleeping over for about 2 and half weeks, you get to know the person a whole lot more. So i saw him wake up in the morning, going to sleep, having sex with clients, while being told to hide in his closet, lol. Anyways, the reason why im a bit not surprised that he became a killer is the simple fact that he was so into the whole Paul Barnardo & Karla Hamolka story. He would watch videos of them on youtube, and he would talk about them as if they were his role models or something, which i found to be a little wierd & strange u know. So i said to myself, in my mind, but to Luka, cause i didn't want him to freak out or turn against me or something. But i said to myself,, hmmmm, i wonder if one day he'll turn out to be a killer.
Cause as a transgender person, we tend to always be some what pyshic connected and we tend to listen to our inner thoughts and voices. Well i'm happy i got payed for that interview i did, but i pretty much spent the $3500 cheque in just only 1 month, lol. How funny eh? I made that in just 1 hour, and i spent it in just 1 month. Oh well it was good while it lasted u know. I had a cop car that pulled me over a few nights ago, cause i was riding without any lights on, and on the sidewalk, which is apparently against the law. They asked me what my name is, so i just gave them my health card id. I told them i never been in jail before but my xbf has. There like oh yea, what did he do? Im like well, u probaly already know him or have heard of him, but hes in Montreal right now in Jail. It's that Luka Magnotta guy. They were surprised and blown away. Im like no joke, im serious, thats my xbf. I was like if u don't believe me just go on the internet on google and type in Luka Magnotta Transsexual Barbie and u can read my story interview i did. Or if u like, i can show u a picture of me and him on my cell phone.
So the cop comes out of his car, with this big smile on his face, and hes like oh this i gotta see. So i showed them the picture, and they asked me why my eyes are blacked out. I was like well after i broke up with him, i noticed he had our photo together posted on one of his youtube videos, and i emailed him asking him to remove it but instead he just blacked out my eyes. What a typical narcassistic thing to do, lol. Anyways they kept asking me all these questions about my xbf Luka Magnotta, they were so entertained that they forgot why they pulled me over in the first place, loll. I was like so am i still gonna get that ticket? He said well we were about to give u one, but and they just decided not too, cause i guess apparently im a celebrity for dating killer Luka Magnotta, or something lol. Anyways, i feel bad that he had to kill that innocent man, just to become well known and famous. I know he did this for attention, theres no doubt in my mind, he did this cause he was mad at him or anything. He was just looking for an easy target and i guess he found one and decided to make a sick twisted video of him too while cutting him up, eating him, and havinig sex with the dead body without the head, arms or legs. Which is pretty sick to be honest.
I regret thousand times, watching that sick video online, cause the images will forever be in my mind now. When i was watching this video, i said to myself, u know that could have been me, cause i remember he wanted to tie me up as well on his bed while i was staying with him, but i told him i don't feel comfortable doing that sort of thing. I feel like im some what reborn again, like i have a second chance of living, cause i could have been the victim, and unaware of his mental sick behaviours, and he could have done this to me. I think my mother would die from a heart attack, cause shes so sensitive, i don't think she could take this news so well u know. Poor Jun Lin, his family must be suffering alot. People often ask me, if i'll ever go in Montreal, and visit my xbf Luka Magnotta, and talk to him. At first it was hell no, but it would be interesting to meet him again after 6yrs later after i broke up with him to see whats up with him. But at the same time, i feel so disgusted talking to him knowing what he did, the murder. You see when we were in a 4 month relationship, it was great, it was boring, it was depressing, it was up & down, kinda like a roller coaster.
He was very sweet and romantic, he would always hold my hand while he was driving his car or if we were watching movies together on top of ordering pizza nightly thing. I knew he had problems, but i didn't know it was so bad he was gonna blow up one day. Even when i wasn't sleeping over his place, he would surprise me and show up outside my house, just to take a drive, and hold my hand and just tell me he has very strong feelings for me. I rememeber he bought me a Big Mac, from McDonalds, and i asked him if he told them to put extra lettuce and tomatoe on it, he said no. I was like fuck. Silly me, i didnt appreciate the nice things people would do for me. So he got a little upset, so i was calmed him down, and kissed him and thanked him for it. He would get upset for small things i noticed. Anyways, he must have still been into me, cause after we broke up, i noticed he was copying & pasting my stories i posted in the past here on tgirlforums and he would post them under his name on other sites. I found that kinda wierd, that he was reading all my shit after we broke up. He must have been a very lonley guy, and must have obviously been living most of his life online, rather then hanging out with friends.
I remember one time, i was watching tv at his place, around 4am, and he woke up in the living room on the next sofa he was sitting on, and he gave me this really nervous, scared confued look and he said to me, who are u? Im like, Luka, lol,, its me Barbie, don't u remember me? U picked me up earlier. He was like oh and then he went back to sleep. The relationship with him was very wierd. He was cold one minute and the next minute u would just love to be around him. He was always generous, always taking me out to places, buying me things. But he avoided sex, cause he told me he had to get to know me better. He said whenever he has sex with his former gfs, they would leave him right away, and he would never hear from them again. I guess he was worried of loosing his gf, after we had sex. I reminded him the first night we met we had sex during the 3some with Nader, a guy i used to go to high school, and he said well that was different, cause now i got strong feelings for u. I remember he one day he was like i gotta tell u something Barbie, im like what? He's like promsie ur not gonna tell anybody, im like ok. He said when i was a teenager i had sex with my mother. Im like oh really. Was this ur step mother or ur biological mother, hes like my real mom.
Im like did it happened more then once? He said yea. I was shocked, and also some what disgusted but at the same time i don't think it was his fault, i think she took advanage of him, so it was kinda like rape. But at the same time, he could have been lying, cause people that are mentally disturbed tend to make up false stories. I can go on and on and on, about more details about our relationship, but i think i'll save all that info on a autobiography book one day. Anyways, im just really sad, that he turned out to be a killer, cause he was still a good guy deep down inside, but he was just in a total fucking mess. Perhaps he was possessed by demonic evil spirits. Sometimes, they influence people to do bad things. He told me he always wanted to be famous, and one day he will become famous, even though he told me once, he wanted to go to school and become a cop, lol. I guess that never happened. He did say, he had a client that was a police officer, and he saw his uniform in his closet when he was at his place. So there u go, even cops, pay prostitudes during there off time, lol. Anyways, i think Luka wanted to get caught sooner or later. I think he enjoyed all this hide and seek, cat & mouse game, running away, and doing small mistakes in hopes he'd get caught. I wonder if my xbf Luka Magnotta, will ever make it into heaven after he dies. Only God knows...
B@rbie Swallows
www.BarbieSwallows.com
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