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I feel a little let down.
Barbie's lost her edge.
Barbie's lost her edge.
Yea i guess ur right... i have lost my wild edge away.. lOL.... I used to write alot of reality sex stories of my life on here like every week and now i guess im just more private. Or maybe it was the cocaine back then that gave me energy to write all the time,, who knows, lol. Ummmm, yea im just tired of explaining myself over and over and over again about my views on men that like trannys. Its kinda like playing the same record non-stop to the point u get tired and bored and fed up. I don't believe 100% straight guys are into someone like an alien/ufo = (shemale) like me and others that got male parts, like a dick. I assume there just very horny kinky guys, bi-curious, fetish guys or bisexuals that got a sick perverted fantasy for someone that is pretty much a freak who is half man and half woman. I often ask myself,, are these guys that are into transsexuals got other sick fantasies as well? Such as beastiality (animals) or underage people (pedophile), or into there sisters/mother (incest) or involve or got a sexual thing with rape torture pain as well ?
I do know majority of guys that like M2F transgender people are mostly drug addicts and they feel ashamed to be seen with us out in public in the straight world, and more so infront of there friends or family members. I feel like we are there dirty little secret, there dirty little fantasy. I used to get mad at guys like that who would ask me for sex but wouldn't wanna walk with me, but would rather walk on the other side of the side walk instead or meet them at a location, but too ashamed to hold my hand or walk together with me due to there own insecurties and the fact that there closet homosexuals/bisexuals or confused fucks. But now i just feel sorry for them cause there obviously big fucking pussys,, big cowards and big losers that are afraid of what society and what everybody else is gonna say or think of them cause there hanging out with a shemale.
I think ive gotten decensitized cause im so used to guys treating me like shit, like im there forbidden fruit, there secret discrete fantasy toy. They often tell me after sex,, oh barbie, dont tell anyone about this, or if u see me with my gf/wife or with my co-workers or family members, dont approch me in public and say hi, just keep walking. That makes me feel like the lowest of the low and yet im there highest top fantasy sexual prize when nobody is around watching or spying on them. They often say transphobic comments a group of guys, trying to impress each other that they are a real man, but i put them to shame cause my dick is usually bigger then most of these fucking pigs and on top of that they usually come on to me whenever they are alone, and ask me for a blow job, and even if i give them my number, they never call back and if the do its a few weeks or months or years later, by then i tell them to go fuck your self, eat shit, catch aids, and go fuck ur mother instead, u fucking faggot bitch queer cunt! lOL.
Anyways... ummm what else can i say. Im not one of those transsexuals that want to be passable and have the world view me as a real girl, cause i find that very boring. I enjoy being different, and controversail, and a freak show alien/ufo motherfucker, and i get off on the shocking reactions and repulsive stairs and expressions on there body langage, cause i think its so funny how people are so back words. I feel like im so ahead of my fucking time, and the normal regular people are like 100 years behind, no joke. I do think transgender people with implants or hormones tits are much more braver then straight/gay/bi men & women & of course a cheap immitation like cross-dressers/drag queens cause we go through so much, and we are challenging society views on what makes a man, and what makes a woman. Im not ashamed for who i am. Im not one of those people that pretends everything is ok and act fake and phoney just to make everyone happy.
I like to question things, and to ask ur self, are u doing this cause u want too, or cause u been told too, and forced to believe things by others cause they think its the right way. Alot of gay and bisexual men, are so private and discrete, they dont want anyone to know about there true sexuality due to fear of being made fun of and bashed and mocked and are all on the down low. I kinda feel the same way within the m2f transgender community as well, where they are often discrete about being a shemale. They rather people think they are real passable women, and alot of times guys could already tell a mile away that ur not the real thing, so stop trying to fool ur self, cause it aint working, cause even the most passable tranny u could still tell there actually really feminie looking guys u know, lol. So yea, i basically dont wanna be in the closet for who i really am.
I used to hang out with this fucking faggot, and he was like barbie, why do u tell guys right away that ur a shemale,, im like why not? Is that a bad thing? Why should i feel guilty or ashamed of who i really am? If they don't like it they could fuck off and find a real girl, cause theres plenty of them around, lol. Most guys are horny bastards and dont care if we're transsexuals anyways, so whats the point in fucking tricking them for? Then again,, ive tricked a few in the past,, oral & anal,, and i must admit it was kinda fun and scary, and very enteratining at the same time cause u just never know what will happen next,, its like a thrill, if you'll get caught, which is why i love having sex out in public, lol.
Anyways.. i think ive said enough already. Hopefully u guys could watch my other interview on A&E coming soon in Feb or March, which im really excited to watch my hollywood documentary premier about my x-boyfriend killer Luka Magnotta, who btw is a fucking piece of shit and hope he rots in hell and dies in his jail cell for what he has done. Sick freak attention whore,, just like that fucking tranny bitch who claimes she also dated him, but we all know she lied and fabricated her fucking story, just to get attention and have people talk about her. No need to name her, cause we all know who she is. And i dont give a fuck if she reading this or not or what she thinks of me, cause i think that was pretty pathetic and low of her to make up false stories just to obtain more fame and attention, how sick eh? lol.... Enough said... Hopefully Tasha Jones will invite me on her radio show again real soon and talk! On a side note i did had a a psychic read my tarot cards and said i was gonna reunite with my x-lover. Could that be Dallas he was talking about? I guess only time will tell. lol Anyways.... ta ta
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