Need help. Have to figure myself out.

[Latenight80]

first time poster. I need some advice about my shemale turn on. Maybe you guys/gals can explain what the fuck my fetish is?? Cause I don't even know myself....

-Turn ons:
-guy fucking her in ass while she strokes her cock.
-Her sucking guys cock
-Her performing RJ.
-Her stroking herself off
-Guy blowing load, in ass, tits, face (not on cock)

-Turn off:
-Guy sucking shemale
-Guy getting fucked (any position)
-Guy receiving her load on his body.
-Guy touching her cock or RJ. Tits and ass fine.

I have been browsing shemale porn for years now, but these rules have never changed. If I even see a small thumbnail of a guy blowing a shemale, it becomes a total turnoff. I think I am hetero sexual, not turned on by men at all, but I guess I am if I'm into shemales. I am just really confused about what and why I am turned on by this....Only thing I can think of is I have a HandJob fetish. Always prefered my girlfriends give me HJ over BJ. The HJ fetish is my only conclusion, to all of this.

Anyways, sorry for going off, but it's not something you can discuss with everybody so I am very thankfull I found this site.

I am just trying to figure out why I love shemales so much...

Thanks

[Whiteboy]

Re: Need help. Have to figure myself out.

Hey there,

Well... I don't know you, and I'm no psychologist, but I can tell you what I think is possible. I think you obviously do in fact like watching or having your own cock stroked. No doubt. You're obviously no attracted to the masculinity of males. You do however seem to have a visual and tactile fixation on the penis. Not only do you like yours stroked, either by a girl or a tgirl... but you also fantasize about watching others stroke there own (in this case, tgirls). I'm sure you would not be adverse to stroking their's for them either. This would make me believe it's not simply a 'jerk-off' fixation, but rather a cock fixation. This, whether you like it or not, is a bisexual tendancy... assuming you still dig natural women. Maybe you want to play with cocks, but don't wanna deal with men... that's where the term, "Best of both worlds" comes into play. You say you're turned-off (is it actual TRUE disgust, or just insecure fear) by the idea of giving head to a tgirl... I wonder if that's only because you're still too nervous/scared about your own sexuality. I think you might possibly be in baby-step mode... one small step at a time, giving your sexuality the space it needs... dip your toe in 1st, then wade around, then tread water, then swim. I imagine, if you continue on this path, that you might eventually open up to oral... you might never be a bottom... but then, you might one day wish to just try it to see... or maybe not.

My main point is, you have a fascination with cock. Not just yours, either. That's cool... that's fine... no prob... but you should realize, it IS a bi-sexual tendency. The word 'bisexual' doesn't mean you're 50/50 straight/gay... there's varying degrees of bisexuality... 10/90... 70/30... and so forth. It's for you to figure out where you lie.

Hope i've offered you some food for thought.

Cheers.

[just4you]

Re: Need help. Have to figure myself out.

Very good analysis I guess by Whiteboy!!! Cheers dude...

As for myself, at the beginning, when I first discovered shemale porn, I thought it was awesome but started to wonder WTF was going on, I'm a straight guy and never been with a guy so I decided to check out gay porn just to see what kind of effect that would have on me...NO EFFECT whatsoever, it didn't turn me on at all...I still wondered though, I'm not gay, always been with gorgeous chicks, never thought of a guy in a sexual way...and there I was in my late 30's being turned on by shemales... From the moment I discovered this fetish, it took me not even 2 months to be with one, it was awesome...and it was only a blowjob from her...

Part II, after that experience, I started to wonder again, but dating chicks at the same time like always, and on a dating site one day, a few months later, I saw a shemale and she was cute... so I contacted her and we started dating, she was not an escort (I really got lucky I tell you, not many of those around...), and man I never saw her as a guy, she was a woman and the sex was totally cool, btw I've never been topped and don't think I ever will but anything else goes and it's all GOOD man

I tested again the gay porn later on and again it didn't arouse me at all... I was then convinced I was not gay, I don't really think about it anymore...to me they are woman with whom I have even more pleasure sexually speaking... Just like when you date chicks, some are good in bed or some less... When I have awesome sex it's because I'm seeing a shemale.

It's been 6-7 years now that they turn me on, still dating girls and when we break up then I see shemales, meet another girl etc... Honestly, if I could find a steady g/f shemale, I'd go for it all the way, no hesitation...it's the best of both worlds, that's what it is... Sometimes I think that I'm doomed, chances to find and meet a g/f shemale is slim to none and I'd like to have a steady relationship with a woman so I'll probably end up having short relationships with chicks so I can live my shemale passion in between, I can't cheat on a g/f...what can I say...it's alright for the ones that do it, I don't really care but it's just not in my nature...

All that said Latenight80, go for it and explore and let your senses do the work...you'll know soon enough if you like it and even maybe explore some of those turn-offs you have right now and start enjoying them...

Cheers dude and have a blast with your life...

The Frenchman

[chester]

Re: Need help. Have to figure myself out.

All that said Latenight80, go for it and explore and let your senses do the work...you'll know soon enough if you like it and even maybe explore some of those turn-offs you have right now and start enjoying them...

Cheers dude and have a blast with your life...

The Frenchman

I totally agree with the Frenchman - "go for it and explore and let your senses do the work..." Don't be afraid of it, take it for what it is, enjoy it. Maybe it will develop into something more, maybe it won't. With me it has developed and continues to change. It was an opening to a whole other side of myself, one I'm still exploring. Have fun with it. You'll learn a lot about yourself, a lot about human nature and meet some great girls along the way.

[brualex336]

Re: Need help. Have to figure myself out.

Hey just4u. If it's the best of both worlds, why haven't you been topped yet? What's the other world you like?

[toban]

Re: Need help. Have to figure myself out.

whiteboy and just4you

You have nailed me perfectly - I feel that your analysis fits me to "T".

I have absolutely no sexual appreciation of males and now I have been 8 or 9 years into this area of sexuality, which for me, also started with the surprise or accidental discovery via porn, of the existence of these fantastic works of art [i.e. "Tgirls"]. Previously, for quite a few years after the death of my wife, I exclusively enjoyed partaking of female companionship, but now feel even more at home with our local tgirls.

[slover]

Re: Need help. Have to figure myself out.

new to shemale/fetish lifestyle have only done 1 female at a time....never had 3s ome or more

turns ons for me
shemale f--king guy
shemale f--shemale
guy f--shemale

guy sucking shemale or shemales orgy


turn offs.

none at moment

[Latenight80]

Re: Need help. Have to figure myself out.

guys/gals thanks for your help/advice.

Maybe I never would have thought it would be a cock fascination. I mean it's not like I am checking cocks out in locker rooms. But I don't know anymore, so I guess at this point anything is possible.

I also reflect on my youth and try and puzzle everything up. This has been my conclusion so far:

- At a young age, before I would have access to any sort of porn. I remember going through any types of magazines to try and find a women with a long slender hand, nice french set nails. I would pull wacks just looking at the hand and nails and be so turned on.

-Teenage years were all about sports. Turned sex out till I finished high school. At 17, I met a hostess at a bar who was in her late 20's. She convinced me to go over to her place to watch movies. Nervous as hell, being a virgin, I kind of figured out what was going to happen. even before I had a chance to get nervous, she was all over me. This is were it gets weired. I never once, had vaginal sex with her. It was 2 weeks of anal and only anal. She would be on her back and while I penetrated her anus she would work her pussy getting herself off and just keep squirting. I guess this was a weired way for myself to pop my cherry. It's been 12 years, no anal since and no woman I have been with has even come close to any sort of ejaculating orgasm.

So to sum this all up. I though, Shemale= anal, on her back and I get to see a handjob and her cumming at the same time. Does this make any sense ?? This is how I have, so far summed up my Shemale fetish. I think I will start with a message parlor or something. Maybe this is the best way to break the ice. Anybody in MTL ever try that trans100 place I have been reading about ?

Thanks again,
LN80