"I'm so fucking pissed off right now"

[Barbie_Swallows]

I fucking just had a big fight now! My family sucks like shit big time! My fucking mother is in Greece for 2 months vacation trip till July 26th, and she don't talk to me anymore, ever since i got my breast implants last year. She told my brother George to tell her fucking he/she son B@rbie that when she comes back she's giving me 2 weeks noticed to move the fuck out of her home. Clearly this fat ugly bitch of a mother of mines, is very homophobic, and hates fags all her life, more so me, cause i'm her son. I got 3 brothers, nobody talks to me in my family, only George. I just asked him a few minutes ago, did u had something to do with mom's plans to kick me out of the house, he said he didn't,, big fucking LIE!

I told him, well why don't u stand up for me for a change, arn't i ur brother for fuck sakes. He gave me the silent treatment. He was like well we don't actually get along u know, so i do too want u to move out. I'm like u fucking peice of shit of a brother u r! This is how u help me out eh. I'm gonna end up living on the god dame streets because of u and ur cunt of a fucking mother u asshole! I was like, can't u stand up for me, again silent treatment. So i fucking flipped out.... I threw glass bottle at him in the kicten, and told him to fuck himself. He chased me down the living room, and wanted to beat me up. I was like go ahead, do whatever u fuck that makes u happy.

YOu want me to walk around the house topless George... i don't give a fuck... i'll take my clothes off right now,, since i know u feel very uncomfortable around me being naked and show too much skin. He told me to fuck off b4 he slapped the front fucking door. I chased him down that mother fucker brother of mines, and threw another object at him outside the house, and i don't give a fuck what the dame nabours say or think. I told him, u want me to act crazy, i'll act crazy u peice of shit! Since i'm being kicked of the house,, then there's no point in me paying rent for this month or next, might as well save my money & move to downtown toronto in fag town where i feel much more accepted by people in my own cummunity.

I fucking hate my family... they suck like hell! I took a black marker and wrote in big letters on my brother georges bedroom door,, a big "FUCK YOU" ... he hasn't seen it yet, cause he's at work now at boring Zellers! My family hates me cause i'm transgender... they didn't accepted me when i was a fucking little gay boy either.... my bitch mother is giving me a hard time for no reason,, i'm not causing any trouble,, yet the fucking cunt wants me to move the fuck out, just because her son got breast implants, and is a big flamer! Family don't mean fuck all anymore.... they are ashamed of me cause i'm a freak show! Don't be surprised if u don't see me around, cause my life is so difficult right now, so depressed,, i might end up killing myself, and i wouldn't care what anybody thinks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

B@rbie Swallows

[OtisDriftwood]

Barbie, family or otherwise, why do you care what anyone else thinks? As long as you know you're living the life that you want to live, what does it matter what anyone else thinks? You're an adult, have made your decisions, and set your course. Anyone who doesn't want to follow yours is free to follow their own.
Try to take all that negative energy and channel it into something usefull, constructive, and eventually positive.

Taking your own life is a huge mistake. You're only alive a very short time, but dead forever and should be in no rush to get there as there's no guarantees as to what's waiting there.

Take the energy it would take to end your life to change it into something you're happier with. Life is a constant series of adjustments and that never changes.

[Barbie_Swallows]

Barbie, family or otherwise, why do you care what anyone else thinks? As long as you know you're living the life that you want to live, what does it matter what anyone else thinks? You're an adult, have made your decisions, and set your course. Anyone who doesn't want to follow yours is free to follow their own.
Try to take all that negative energy and channel it into something usefull, constructive, and eventually positive.

Taking your own life is a huge mistake. You're only alive a very short time, but dead forever and should be in no rush to get there as there's no guarantees as to what's waiting there.

Take the energy it would take to end your life to change it into something you're happier with. Life is a constant series of adjustments and that never changes.

If i had enough money saved up right now, yes i would move the fuck out... this is why i'm fucking pissed off! My bitch mother is giving me 2 weeks noticed to move the fuck out,, yet my brother george, don't wanna help me out at all, he's a mama's boy, he could help change her mind, till i got enough saved up to move out, but no,, he's not on my side,, he's a fucking peice of shit that wants to cause trouble for me just like my homophobic mother! Very hard when nobody in ur family accepts u, and when everyone is against you just because ur different. I think i'd be much happier if i did in fact moved out and living my own u know. I'm turning 26 this june 16th... so its about time i take respondsability.... my other brothers are age 31, 30 & 22... my bitch mother don't complain and tell them to move out, cause they are straight & normal and i'm not, so because of that i'm being treated like shit! I hope she dies soon goes to hell that cunt mother of mines!

[konabuds]

Hi Barbie,

Your predicament sucks big time, but it sounds like you knew it was coming. If your mother has been upset with you since you got the implants, and you had those done last year, well! Saying that, you cannot help who you are or what you feel, and it is a parents job to love you for who you.

Maybe all your mother needs is some time away from you, and also for you to show her, you are the same wonderful person as before that is finally living as who she has always been.

Or maybe things will never change, but keep in mind, you are either a good person that is happy with herself, that is living as who you feel you are. Or you go back to being a guy that is miserable, and unhappy, but there family accepts them.

What would you rather?

kona

[Barbie_Swallows]

Hi Barbie,

Your predicament sucks big time, but it sounds like you knew it was coming. If your mother has been upset with you since you got the implants, and you had those done last year, well! Saying that, you cannot help who you are or what you feel, and it is a parents job to love you for who you.

Maybe all your mother needs is some time away from you, and also for you to show her, you are the same wonderful person as before that is finally living as who she has always been.

Or maybe things will never change, but keep in mind, you are either a good person that is happy with herself, that is living as who you feel you are. Or you go back to being a guy that is miserable, and unhappy, but there family accepts them.

What would you rather?

kona

oh please even if i did conformed back into a guy,, my family won't accept me still, i'd still be a fucking queer... not straight,, they would still give me a hard time, trust me. I already once comformed back into a boy when i was 18yrs old, to make my bitch mother happy, but guess what,,she was still treating me like a peice of shit just like b4 when i was living my life as a full time girl.... so now that i want back into a tranny,, she said i'd rather u stay as a gay boy,, i could handle that,,but can't handle u being a transsexual... oh please,, she's the type of person that complains and bitchs all her life, she's never satisfied what i do or how i present myself. As a kid growing up at age 10 and so on as a teenager and still today as an adult, she always gave hugs and kiss's to my other 3 brothers, leaving to go to school and returning home, but with me nothing... i think she always knew i was gay/transgender and avoided me all this time growing up. she just can't handle anything that is wierd or different, cause she's narrow minded and ignorant bitch!

[sensual_lover20]

Life

Your serious thoughts about suicide are very concerning. I have read it many times over the various threads you have posted. Your meant to enjoy life so taking yours away would be very foolish. Suicide is never positive, it only breeds a chain of negative thoughts and emotions. Play it safe, use your main stream of income to move out where you will accepted and life will gradually be better. I surely would never talk to family if they did that to me, but I would be muc happier knowing I don't have to talk to them again. Ride that thought for a bit.

[byguy1972]

sorry to hear about your problems barbie, if I lived in T.O. I'd gladly open my door to you.

[OtisDriftwood]

sorry to hear about your problems barbie, if I lived in T.O. I'd gladly open my door to you.

Did you ever hear the story about the guy who brought the poisonous snake home with him?

How about Dracula? You know what happens when you invite him in, right?

Go back and carefully read all of Barbie's posts before welcoming her to stay.

[wellhungone]

Barbie,

look at your family culture then look at your lifestyle do you really expect them to accept it