a question for the girls...

[Wiseone26]

The last few days I've been thinking about a few things. After seeing all the disputes and catfights on here made me think about something.

How do you girls deal with the emotions and or mental aspects of escorting? I know it might be a bit of a survival instinct. I know correct me if I'm wrong getting stuck in a rut due to easy money. But getting to the heart of the matter how do you block the emotional side?

pm's are fine

[Dani]

They try to fill up the void with cum. For some, they find men's attention a reprieve for not being a genetic woman; Ironically, the attention is usually directed at a symbol of masculinity they abhor.

[TsMonique]

For many of the girls working as escorts, realistically, they don't have any other choice. That is - if they want to achieve their full transition including the necessary surgeries within a realistic period of time.

Nothing in life is easy especially this one! But if you remain focused you can achieve your goals. Quite quickly I might add!

If you go at it from the right angle you can really minimize your risks. It's not so bad.

[Tasha Jones RIP]

Long Winded I am!

Paula this is a very good question that I will try to answer for myself only in my own long winded way.


I started escorting at the age of 12. I was at a public place in the bathroom and a guy was there and asked if I wanted to make $50.00. I thought of all the junk food I could get and agreed. He sucked me off and it was over in 5 minutes. Now look, at that age, I know it is wrong, very wrong, but that is not the point of this.


I was already dressing at this point and had no parent really in my life to tell me what was right and what was wrong. No one to guide me or help me understand what was going on in my head or to my body. So I was out till 3am just wondering the streets. Being anywhere but my own home. It truly was freedom for me as well as sanity. I could wear my female clothes without being judged. To be honest I fit in with the downtown crowed that I was walking around with. They did not judge me and were in the same place as I was when it came to family. It was a good support system for all of us.


So it happened again, this time from a guy in a car. But this time he thought I was a woman and he wanted me to suck him off. The power and confidence I felt from that was overwhelming and for the first time in my life I felt normal and accepted, in a sick twisted way, loved even. I started doing it almost every night and made enough money to move out of Halifax and start my life away from my family and closed minded people.


If you ask me if I would change it all now, the answer is YES. I would have finished school and tried in a healthy way to understand what was going on with me. I would have gotten a better support system then kids who were just as lost as me. I would have done what needed to be done without selling a part of me to have my SRS and live my life as a normal house wife. If I had this in my life like most children should. I do not think I would have ever started escorting or doing porn.


Please do not get me wrong, I truly have enjoyed some of what being a shemale escort/porn & webcam model has done for my life and my confidence. I got to travel and meet some really wonderful people. I have had some very good relationships because of it as well. It also gave me the confidence I needed to deal with what being a Transsexual means in this life. It can be a very lonely world and a hard world to fit into. For me I was worried that people would not understand and they would treat me with disgust. This is why most times I would hide that I was a Transsexual and would never admit to being an escort. It was also hard for me to understand myself as a human, who or what was I and why did this happen to me.


For Transsexuals it can be a catch 22 in life. We need to work to make enough to live our life and go where we need to go with our transition. But by doing that we are not living a normal life and are looked down on by most. The guys who will date us are just as fucked us as we are and they even look down on us for what we have to do for a living. Most clients want us for the part of us that we wish we never had in the first place. You have to be really strong to deal with everyday life as a Transsexual and even more so being an escort. But for some they will turn to drugs to make it o.k. Some will let the image of a shemale star go to there head. Whatever works to get though the next client or next day of this life. Not all girls are like this or feel like this. But I have more then once in my life.


But that life was never enough for me. This is why I worked as a waitress at the lounge and a Bartender at Goodhandys. I personal needed more in my life then just seeing clients. I also loved being able to talk to the clients with out the issue of money. It was about talking, nothing more, well for me anyways who knows what they were saying to my chest..lol.


Then 2 years ago I made a huge change by moving to London and going to College. I was terrified that I would not be able to do it or that people would know who or what I was. In my eyes what did I have to offer the non Escort/Transsexual world other then sex? But it was something I had to do for myself and I had to face the real world as Chris not Tasha Jones. Even my real name ?Chris? was a huge step for me to start using. I always went by ?Chrissy?or ?Christea? because that was my female name, in my head ?Chris? was my male name that my family gave me. But I let that all go because I had no more questions on who I was, I had no more issues where I was in my life. I accepted it after many years that this is who I am and I can other deal with it and better myself or stay where I am and be a 50 year old Transsexual still bitching about life.


But to my own shock in myself, I gained confidence by learning a new trade, by being good at that trade and by finishing what I set out to do. I was doing this, it had nothing to do with me being a Transsexual or an escort. It was just me. Putting on my nurses outfit, going to work and being respected as an equal was something I really needed in my life to bring me to peace within myself.


Now I am still escorting and in fact will be touring this summer for escorting reasons. But I am not the same person I was and I do not look at it the same as I once did. This is because I am at peace with my life and who I am as a Transsexual Escort!


So after giving you all my personal life cry story..lol. My point is this.


For me this started out as a way to be accepted as a woman & to save myself from my family. Then it was because I had to pay the bills and wanted to improve myself as a woman. Now it is because I see the finish line of where I wish to go with my life and I have no issues with being myself. I also am in a better place and look at this as a business. I am open on who I am and what I do, even to the people I work with and went to school with, I told them and talk to them when they ask questions about me. I was able to come to a place where I did not care what they thought, if they liked me as a person then who I am should not matter and to my shock it does not. After me telling them, nothing has changed in how they act towards me. In fact by coming out of my shell and being honest, it has made it possible for me to go to dinners with them, become friends with them outside of work.


For me, I found that I had to be o.k with myself in my personal life before anything else. Because the escorting/Transsexual world could careless about my issues or my fears.


Anyways, I hope I did not go off topic to much and I hope I answered your question from my point of view.


Tasha

[Justcurious34]

Paula this is a very good question that I will try to answer for myself only in my own long winded way.


I started escorting at the age of 12. I was at a public place in the bathroom and a guy was there and asked if I wanted to make $50.00. I thought of all the junk food I could get and agreed. He sucked me off and it was over in 5 minutes. Now look, at that age, I know it is wrong, very wrong, but that is not the point of this.


I was already dressing at this point and had no parent really in my life to tell me what was right and what was wrong. No one to guide me or help me understand what was going on in my head or to my body. So I was out till 3am just wondering the streets. Being anywhere but my own home. It truly was freedom for me as well as sanity. I could wear my female clothes without being judged. To be honest I fit in with the downtown crowed that I was walking around with. They did not judge me and were in the same place as I was when it came to family. It was a good support system for all of us.


So it happened again, this time from a guy in a car. But this time he thought I was a woman and he wanted me to suck him off. The power and confidence I felt from that was overwhelming and for the first time in my life I felt normal and accepted, in a sick twisted way, loved even. I started doing it almost every night and made enough money to move out of Halifax and start my life away from my family and closed minded people.


If you ask me if I would change it all now, the answer is YES. I would have finished school and tried in a healthy way to understand what was going on with me. I would have gotten a better support system then kids who were just as lost as me. I would have done what needed to be done without selling a part of me to have my SRS and live my life as a normal house wife. If I had this in my life like most children should. I do not think I would have ever started escorting or doing porn.


Please do not get me wrong, I truly have enjoyed some of what being a shemale escort/porn & webcam model has done for my life and my confidence. I got to travel and meet some really wonderful people. I have had some very good relationships because of it as well. It also gave me the confidence I needed to deal with what being a Transsexual means in this life. It can be a very lonely world and a hard world to fit into. For me I was worried that people would not understand and they would treat me with disgust. This is why most times I would hide that I was a Transsexual and would never admit to being an escort. It was also hard for me to understand myself as a human, who or what was I and why did this happen to me.


For Transsexuals it can be a catch 22 in life. We need to work to make enough to live our life and go where we need to go with our transition. But by doing that we are not living a normal life and are looked down on by most. The guys who will date us are just as fucked us as we are and they even look down on us for what we have to do for a living. Most clients want us for the part of us that we wish we never had in the first place. You have to be really strong to deal with everyday life as a Transsexual and even more so being an escort. But for some they will turn to drugs to make it o.k. Some will let the image of a shemale star go to there head. Whatever works to get though the next client or next day of this life. Not all girls are like this or feel like this. But I have more then once in my life.


But that life was never enough for me. This is why I worked as a waitress at the lounge and a Bartender at Goodhandys. I personal needed more in my life then just seeing clients. I also loved being able to talk to the clients with out the issue of money. It was about talking, nothing more, well for me anyways who knows what they were saying to my chest..lol.


Then 2 years ago I made a huge change by moving to London and going to College. I was terrified that I would not be able to do it or that people would know who or what I was. In my eyes what did I have to offer the non Escort/Transsexual world other then sex? But it was something I had to do for myself and I had to face the real world as Chris not Tasha Jones. Even my real name ?Chris? was a huge step for me to start using. I always went by ?Chrissy?or ?Christea? because that was my female name, in my head ?Chris? was my male name that my family gave me. But I let that all go because I had no more questions on who I was, I had no more issues where I was in my life. I accepted it after many years that this is who I am and I can other deal with it and better myself or stay where I am and be a 50 year old Transsexual still bitching about life.


But to my own shock in myself, I gained confidence by learning a new trade, by being good at that trade and by finishing what I set out to do. I was doing this, it had nothing to do with me being a Transsexual or an escort. It was just me. Putting on my nurses outfit, going to work and being respected as an equal was something I really needed in my life to bring me to peace within myself.


Now I am still escorting and in fact will be touring this summer for escorting reasons. But I am not the same person I was and I do not look at it the same as I once did. This is because I am at peace with my life and who I am as a Transsexual Escort!


So after giving you all my personal life cry story..lol. My point is this.


For me this started out as a way to be accepted as a woman & to save myself from my family. Then it was because I had to pay the bills and wanted to improve myself as a woman. Now it is because I see the finish line of where I wish to go with my life and I have no issues with being myself. I also am in a better place and look at this as a business. I am open on who I am and what I do, even to the people I work with and went to school with, I told them and talk to them when they ask questions about me. I was able to come to a place where I did not care what they thought, if they liked me as a person then who I am should not matter and to my shock it does not. After me telling them, nothing has changed in how they act towards me. In fact by coming out of my shell and being honest, it has made it possible for me to go to dinners with them, become friends with them outside of work.


For me, I found that I had to be o.k with myself in my personal life before anything else. Because the escorting/Transsexual world could careless about my issues or my fears.


Anyways, I hope I did not go off topic to much and I hope I answered your question from my point of view.


Tasha

TAsha
I for one reader, thank you for " not being afraid to tell Us who you are"

You have my respect and admiration, be all you can be
I really enjoyed your honesty, you are a wonderful humane

Me, Im just a guy trying to learn about your world
I have no idea what draws me close to the fire but I find you ladies
fascinating

I had my first experience today, I spent hours talking to an amazing gal,

But, Im really not into to much, so I received oral and an made a new friend ,hopfully for life,
she is exactly as you describe yourself,she got short changed and wants to go all the way, to her completion as the person she needs to be
Duke

[Justcurious34]

For many of the girls working as escorts, realistically, they don't have any other choice. That is - if they want to achieve their full transition including the necessary surgeries within a realistic period of time.

Nothing in life is easy especially this one! But if you remain focused you can achieve your goals. Quite quickly I might add!

If you go at it from the right angle you can really minimize your risks. It's not so bad.

you have so many gifts to start, you will be an amazing person when you finish your full transition
Im sure the world will hear from you
I mean that in a very good way

your the reason I joined this site,I wanted to understand as much as humanely possible,it was my brief conversations with you, I had to understand your world
duke

[Wiseone26]

TsMonique, no other choice I totally understand that. I tried it awhile back and failed due to emotional crap. But no other choice is the key word. I am working a customer service job but it isn't going to last very long. Until I found that job I was told 'no', 'job is taken' and lied to by places hiring. I'm afraid to start looking again cause I know I will have to deal with all that again. And the thought of giving it another try is there, but the emotional stuff and my age are going against me. But thank you for your reply.

Tasha, I sent you a pm, and thank you for being so open.

Duke, you replies to Monique and Tasha are welcome. thank you.

[sensual_lover20]

That was a nice read Tasha. My hat goes off to you. Figuring out your own answers to life is what makes it so spectacular.

[kristopin]

well put Tasha

Wow that was well put Tasha.
cheers

[Lani]

My Admiration For You Tasha

Hats off and I salute you and my admiration as well. Your resiliency and survival instinct didn't even diminished your capacity to remain a good human being, and the agony you carry on with your journey doesn't even seems to ruin your dignity as a person.

Transgendered people are sometimes excuse from a time to time exhibit of some harmless tantrums, and believe me I've seen and encountered so many, some girl would snap at me in the club for no apparent reason, the next day they know not or remembered what they've done and will give me hugs and kisses again lol!
I don't exactly know or second guess the reason and I won't speculate so as not to put me in trouble in case they are lurking in here lol!

But knowing you personally certainly made my initiations to this environment (I meant the Spa and then the Club) a pleasant experience. And as I wish you the best of everything before, I wish you all the best today.

[youngboy4ts]

salute

Tasha, I Salute you,

People, What Tasha said that exactly I think that these girls put there life away from Family and some good friends to fight with nature mistake. I mean it’s really sad to read and heard how much things that girls have to go through achieve there life goals.



That’s why I have more Respect for you all girls. Salute to all of you girls

Respect!!!

[TsMonique]

you have so many gifts to start, you will be an amazing person when you finish your full transition
Im sure the world will hear from you
I mean that in a very good way

your the reason I joined this site,I wanted to understand as much as humanely possible,it was my brief conversations with you, I had to understand your world
duke

Thanks I am flattered I inspired you to come and educate yourself. Don't be swayed by the bad and ugly side of things.

Good luck to the two of you. I hope the satisfaction is mutual. After you long journey you may also achieve your goals of finding that 'special' lady friend.

[bluequad]

For Transsexuals it can be a catch 22 in life. We need to work to make enough to live our life and go where we need to go with our transition. But by doing that we are not living a normal life and are looked down on by most. The guys who will date us are just as fucked us as we are and they even look down on us for what we have to do for a living. Most clients want us for the part of us that we wish we never had in the first place. You have to be really strong to deal with everyday life as a Transsexual and even more so being an escort. But for some they will turn to drugs to make it o.k. Some will let the image of a shemale star go to there head. Whatever works to get though the next client or next day of this life. Not all girls are like this or feel like this. But I have more then once in my life.

First, I'd like to say that I appreciate you opening up and allowing us to see more into your life. I would also like to say that I have seen you as an escort and looking down on you was never anything that entered my mind. Quite the opposite actually. I'm sure you don't remember our time together as it was a few years ago now but the amount of time we spent talking about several different topics was every bit as fascinating and exciting to me as the encounter we shared that night. With that being said, I now find myself in a catch 22 not unlike what you described and I'm sure many others members here that genuinely care about people and who like to spend time with Tgirl escorts are now having the same questions in their minds. If we continue to see Tgirl escorts are we contributing to their life's struggles because they know we are attracted to them sexually as a woman with that "something extra" that they wish they didn't have in the first place, or are we helping them with our donations to get to where they need to be to fulfill their needs in life? As someone who cares about people, I would hate to think that when I see a Tgirl escort that in their minds they are struggling emotionally about the encounter and think I am looking down on them. It's not like I would know who is an escort out of need, who is struggling emotionally and who is doing it for some other reason. None of us that care about Tgirls as people would ever carry through with an encounter if we knew it was causing emotional stress for them and we can't say...."Hi, nice to meet you. Before we go any further, I want you to know that you are not being looking down upon but I need to know if this encounter will be helping you or hurting you emotionally and do you hate that you are a woman with a penis?" I'm pretty sure that would ruin the mood. It would for me anyway. The same can be said for photographers, video professionals and people that view Tgirl webcams. Are they contributing to the problems Tgirls struggle with or are they helping? A true catch 22 indeed!

[somuchtounderstand]

Paula this is a very good question that I will try to answer for myself only in my own long winded way.


I started escorting at the age of 12. I was at a public place in the bathroom and a guy was there and asked if I wanted to make $50.00. I thought of all the junk food I could get and agreed. He sucked me off and it was over in 5 minutes. Now look, at that age, I know it is wrong, very wrong, but that is not the point of this.


I was already dressing at this point and had no parent really in my life to tell me what was right and what was wrong. No one to guide me or help me understand what was going on in my head or to my body. So I was out till 3am just wondering the streets. Being anywhere but my own home. It truly was freedom for me as well as sanity. I could wear my female clothes without being judged. To be honest I fit in with the downtown crowed that I was walking around with. They did not judge me and were in the same place as I was when it came to family. It was a good support system for all of us.


So it happened again, this time from a guy in a car. But this time he thought I was a woman and he wanted me to suck him off. The power and confidence I felt from that was overwhelming and for the first time in my life I felt normal and accepted, in a sick twisted way, loved even. I started doing it almost every night and made enough money to move out of Halifax and start my life away from my family and closed minded people.


If you ask me if I would change it all now, the answer is YES. I would have finished school and tried in a healthy way to understand what was going on with me. I would have gotten a better support system then kids who were just as lost as me. I would have done what needed to be done without selling a part of me to have my SRS and live my life as a normal house wife. If I had this in my life like most children should. I do not think I would have ever started escorting or doing porn.


Please do not get me wrong, I truly have enjoyed some of what being a shemale escort/porn & webcam model has done for my life and my confidence. I got to travel and meet some really wonderful people. I have had some very good relationships because of it as well. It also gave me the confidence I needed to deal with what being a Transsexual means in this life. It can be a very lonely world and a hard world to fit into. For me I was worried that people would not understand and they would treat me with disgust. This is why most times I would hide that I was a Transsexual and would never admit to being an escort. It was also hard for me to understand myself as a human, who or what was I and why did this happen to me.


For Transsexuals it can be a catch 22 in life. We need to work to make enough to live our life and go where we need to go with our transition. But by doing that we are not living a normal life and are looked down on by most. The guys who will date us are just as fucked us as we are and they even look down on us for what we have to do for a living. Most clients want us for the part of us that we wish we never had in the first place. You have to be really strong to deal with everyday life as a Transsexual and even more so being an escort. But for some they will turn to drugs to make it o.k. Some will let the image of a shemale star go to there head. Whatever works to get though the next client or next day of this life. Not all girls are like this or feel like this. But I have more then once in my life.


But that life was never enough for me. This is why I worked as a waitress at the lounge and a Bartender at Goodhandys. I personal needed more in my life then just seeing clients. I also loved being able to talk to the clients with out the issue of money. It was about talking, nothing more, well for me anyways who knows what they were saying to my chest..lol.


Then 2 years ago I made a huge change by moving to London and going to College. I was terrified that I would not be able to do it or that people would know who or what I was. In my eyes what did I have to offer the non Escort/Transsexual world other then sex? But it was something I had to do for myself and I had to face the real world as Chris not Tasha Jones. Even my real name ?Chris? was a huge step for me to start using. I always went by ?Chrissy?or ?Christea? because that was my female name, in my head ?Chris? was my male name that my family gave me. But I let that all go because I had no more questions on who I was, I had no more issues where I was in my life. I accepted it after many years that this is who I am and I can other deal with it and better myself or stay where I am and be a 50 year old Transsexual still bitching about life.


But to my own shock in myself, I gained confidence by learning a new trade, by being good at that trade and by finishing what I set out to do. I was doing this, it had nothing to do with me being a Transsexual or an escort. It was just me. Putting on my nurses outfit, going to work and being respected as an equal was something I really needed in my life to bring me to peace within myself.


Now I am still escorting and in fact will be touring this summer for escorting reasons. But I am not the same person I was and I do not look at it the same as I once did. This is because I am at peace with my life and who I am as a Transsexual Escort!


So after giving you all my personal life cry story..lol. My point is this.


For me this started out as a way to be accepted as a woman & to save myself from my family. Then it was because I had to pay the bills and wanted to improve myself as a woman. Now it is because I see the finish line of where I wish to go with my life and I have no issues with being myself. I also am in a better place and look at this as a business. I am open on who I am and what I do, even to the people I work with and went to school with, I told them and talk to them when they ask questions about me. I was able to come to a place where I did not care what they thought, if they liked me as a person then who I am should not matter and to my shock it does not. After me telling them, nothing has changed in how they act towards me. In fact by coming out of my shell and being honest, it has made it possible for me to go to dinners with them, become friends with them outside of work.


For me, I found that I had to be o.k with myself in my personal life before anything else. Because the escorting/Transsexual world could careless about my issues or my fears.


Anyways, I hope I did not go off topic to much and I hope I answered your question from my point of view.


Tasha

Tasha
what a story, Im speechless,
you are a real touch of class
thank you so much

[Justcurious34]

Paula this is a very good question that I will try to answer for myself only in my own long winded way.


I started escorting at the age of 12. I was at a public place in the bathroom and a guy was there and asked if I wanted to make $50.00. I thought of all the junk food I could get and agreed. He sucked me off and it was over in 5 minutes. Now look, at that age, I know it is wrong, very wrong, but that is not the point of this.


I was already dressing at this point and had no parent really in my life to tell me what was right and what was wrong. No one to guide me or help me understand what was going on in my head or to my body. So I was out till 3am just wondering the streets. Being anywhere but my own home. It truly was freedom for me as well as sanity. I could wear my female clothes without being judged. To be honest I fit in with the downtown crowed that I was walking around with. They did not judge me and were in the same place as I was when it came to family. It was a good support system for all of us.


So it happened again, this time from a guy in a car. But this time he thought I was a woman and he wanted me to suck him off. The power and confidence I felt from that was overwhelming and for the first time in my life I felt normal and accepted, in a sick twisted way, loved even. I started doing it almost every night and made enough money to move out of Halifax and start my life away from my family and closed minded people.


If you ask me if I would change it all now, the answer is YES. I would have finished school and tried in a healthy way to understand what was going on with me. I would have gotten a better support system then kids who were just as lost as me. I would have done what needed to be done without selling a part of me to have my SRS and live my life as a normal house wife. If I had this in my life like most children should. I do not think I would have ever started escorting or doing porn.


Please do not get me wrong, I truly have enjoyed some of what being a shemale escort/porn & webcam model has done for my life and my confidence. I got to travel and meet some really wonderful people. I have had some very good relationships because of it as well. It also gave me the confidence I needed to deal with what being a Transsexual means in this life. It can be a very lonely world and a hard world to fit into. For me I was worried that people would not understand and they would treat me with disgust. This is why most times I would hide that I was a Transsexual and would never admit to being an escort. It was also hard for me to understand myself as a human, who or what was I and why did this happen to me.


For Transsexuals it can be a catch 22 in life. We need to work to make enough to live our life and go where we need to go with our transition. But by doing that we are not living a normal life and are looked down on by most. The guys who will date us are just as fucked us as we are and they even look down on us for what we have to do for a living. Most clients want us for the part of us that we wish we never had in the first place. You have to be really strong to deal with everyday life as a Transsexual and even more so being an escort. But for some they will turn to drugs to make it o.k. Some will let the image of a shemale star go to there head. Whatever works to get though the next client or next day of this life. Not all girls are like this or feel like this. But I have more then once in my life.


But that life was never enough for me. This is why I worked as a waitress at the lounge and a Bartender at Goodhandys. I personal needed more in my life then just seeing clients. I also loved being able to talk to the clients with out the issue of money. It was about talking, nothing more, well for me anyways who knows what they were saying to my chest..lol.


Then 2 years ago I made a huge change by moving to London and going to College. I was terrified that I would not be able to do it or that people would know who or what I was. In my eyes what did I have to offer the non Escort/Transsexual world other then sex? But it was something I had to do for myself and I had to face the real world as Chris not Tasha Jones. Even my real name ?Chris? was a huge step for me to start using. I always went by ?Chrissy?or ?Christea? because that was my female name, in my head ?Chris? was my male name that my family gave me. But I let that all go because I had no more questions on who I was, I had no more issues where I was in my life. I accepted it after many years that this is who I am and I can other deal with it and better myself or stay where I am and be a 50 year old Transsexual still bitching about life.


But to my own shock in myself, I gained confidence by learning a new trade, by being good at that trade and by finishing what I set out to do. I was doing this, it had nothing to do with me being a Transsexual or an escort. It was just me. Putting on my nurses outfit, going to work and being respected as an equal was something I really needed in my life to bring me to peace within myself.


Now I am still escorting and in fact will be touring this summer for escorting reasons. But I am not the same person I was and I do not look at it the same as I once did. This is because I am at peace with my life and who I am as a Transsexual Escort!


So after giving you all my personal life cry story..lol. My point is this.


For me this started out as a way to be accepted as a woman & to save myself from my family. Then it was because I had to pay the bills and wanted to improve myself as a woman. Now it is because I see the finish line of where I wish to go with my life and I have no issues with being myself. I also am in a better place and look at this as a business. I am open on who I am and what I do, even to the people I work with and went to school with, I told them and talk to them when they ask questions about me. I was able to come to a place where I did not care what they thought, if they liked me as a person then who I am should not matter and to my shock it does not. After me telling them, nothing has changed in how they act towards me. In fact by coming out of my shell and being honest, it has made it possible for me to go to dinners with them, become friends with them outside of work.


For me, I found that I had to be o.k with myself in my personal life before anything else. Because the escorting/Transsexual world could careless about my issues or my fears.


Anyways, I hope I did not go off topic to much and I hope I answered your question from my point of view.


Tasha

Tasha
your work should be required reading to every young member who has membership on this site

I have read your story at least five times, it touches me more with each read.

you have given this site an inspirational documention in could be a referral piece for the young generation looking for help and guidance.



did you ever think about volunteering, you have something to say
the next generation needs women like you , you could be a strong guidance Im sure you could help so many lifes.