Am I really selling my soul to the devil?

[Clone 0101]

I really like Ana's(Clone 0101) advice.

xoxo
AiKo

Thanks ladies. Lets be honest with ourselves though girls this is not going to give us a retirement plan etc. Be smart think about your future dont sell yourself short.

[Meagan Nutwood]

I think you should really look at things long term to be honest. Try and get as much schooling as you can. Have a job on the side for experience. Dont let escorting be a life long goal. There will be a point when it will seem that it isnt exactly what you expected it to be. You do not want to be stuck with nothing to fall back on if you change your mind.

Exactly! I don't want want escorting to be my life , you know? I dropped out of high school because I was constantly getting into fights, suspensions , expelled and I went to some pretty rough high schools. & I had an absolutely terrible time at home as well. I then lost my families support at a young age so I spent most of my time living at friends houses and stuff - I had a hard time figuring out who I was or who I wanted to be because I've never met a trans person before In my life at the time , yet I was still dressing. I knew who I was inside but I felt like such an outcast, like I had no right to be in the world cause I didnt know trans people existed!

So I was way too afraid to apply for jobs or go to other schools. When I found out about escorting I then began to rely on it for the last 2 years. But Now it has come to a point where I begin to question what am I really going to do with my life because I cannot rely on escorting alone.

Now that I have a taste of what the business is about I realized that I need to go back to school and gain other experiences and open better opportunities for myself. Trust me I would love a job on the side but I have nothing to put on a resume lol. I spent most of teen years on the streets.

But now that is all over I'm left with all these decisions and its like I really don't know what to do cause I don't want to regret anything.. even though I am not the type of person to regret things. So I guess thats why im here fishing for advice and opinions. I appreciate your words!

[ATM]

x

[greep]

Hey Miyoko, How do you like living in Montreal?

[nbdave]

This is a general comment and not to anyone in particular, but I think you could and maybe should consider becoming a business owner as your next career. Take some business courses, get a financial advisor who can work with you to get some money set aside, and figure out what business you could do. I don't know how you legitimize your current profession and income from the standpoint of getting bank financing, so unless someone has a clever idea I'd think you almost need to be self-funded to get started, and that's where a financial advisor can help out. I've been doing the transition between employee and business owner, and I spent a bunch of time investigating franchises mostly from the standpoint of getting ideas about what business to run. There are also business brokers, essentially the equivalent of real estate agents except they deal in businesses for sale who can give you listings and prices so you'd know what you're looking at to buy an already successful business. Lots of good info out there.

Explaining the holes in the resume to a prospective employer, attempting to get an employer to hire a transgendered person with no experience, that's going to be really tough. Going from complete independence in work to being told exactly what to do and how to do it, that wouldn't be a picnic either.

[Fudgepacker]

What ever you decide to do, don't let money get in the way. Don't stay in escorts because of the money, you'll regret it big time. Money is everywhere, easy come, easy go, listen to your heart and follow that tune, everything else will take care of itself with a little faith. Do what you truly love doing or think you would love doing. What a dream life would have been for me, if I could have done what I truly enjoyed doing, and got paid for doing it! I should of been a musician or singer, I ignored that part of me. Now I did really good in life money wise but ask me if I am as happy as I could of been had I pursued my passion. Too old now to change things, but you on the otehr hand are young and have the world and life in your palms.

[greep]

When you're weary
Feeling small
When tears are in your eyes
I will dry them all

I'm on your side
When times get rough
And friends just can't be found
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down

When you're down and out
When you're on the street
When evening falls so hard
I will comfort you

I'll take your part
When darkness comes
And pain is all around
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down

Sail on Silver Girl,
Sail on by
Your time has come to shine
All your dreams are on their way

See how they shine
If you need a friend
I'm sailing right behind
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H_a46WJ1viA

[Meagan Nutwood]

tough decision Yokomi.

I think you have definitely a potential.

Do you know Aamiyah?
Bright, young, creative, ambitious, beautiful and big ()

She reminds me of you, and she has made her name both in escorting and porn industry. too bad that she does not pursue it to the next level.


However, as Ana has mentioned, never think that this will be a forever career for us.

Even though, if we are really successful, the money is actually excellent and pretty substantial, thus enabling you to open up a new business or something like that.

Good luck

Thanks alot

[Meagan Nutwood]

the world is ready for the first tranny superstar--and you could be it. having been an escort won't hurt you a bit, what hurts is getting into drugs, falling in love with losers, or constantly chasing the easy money from webcam or escorting and not working on your music. if you are serious, and TALENTED you will make it. you have that star power already--you just need to work your ass off on your music to make your dreams come true. if it doesn't happen it's not because you were an escort--but because you didn't take your dreams seriously.

This is what I would like to believe.. I mean there are transsexuals on tv now - I honestly believe the world is ready for transsexuals in a newer light and it is definitely my dream to break the ice.

[Meagan Nutwood]

This is a general comment and not to anyone in particular, but I think you could and maybe should consider becoming a business owner as your next career. Take some business courses, get a financial advisor who can work with you to get some money set aside, and figure out what business you could do. I don't know how you legitimize your current profession and income from the standpoint of getting bank financing, so unless someone has a clever idea I'd think you almost need to be self-funded to get started, and that's where a financial advisor can help out. I've been doing the transition between employee and business owner, and I spent a bunch of time investigating franchises mostly from the standpoint of getting ideas about what business to run. There are also business brokers, essentially the equivalent of real estate agents except they deal in businesses for sale who can give you listings and prices so you'd know what you're looking at to buy an already successful business. Lots of good info out there.

Explaining the holes in the resume to a prospective employer, attempting to get an employer to hire a transgendered person with no experience, that's going to be really tough. Going from complete independence in work to being told exactly what to do and how to do it, that wouldn't be a picnic either.

Excellent information to run with , I'll definitely consider this , thank you very much!

[pornfan83]

Yokomi,I very sorry to hear about your rough up bringing and as someone that totally hated school I can totally relate after all school kids can be some of the meanest cruelest people on earth.You're dropping of school I would have never guessed you're so articulate you're very well spoken.
I would have never thought of you as someone with a rough up bringing due to the fact that in your videos you come across as a very friendly down earth person.
Just keep pursuing your goals and hopefully good will come of it.I truly believe good things happen to good people.
I wish you all the best.

[Tia Phoenixx]

Yokomi,I very sorry to hear about your rough up bringing and as someone that totally hated school I can totally relate after all school kids can be some of the meanest cruelest people on earth.You're dropping of school I would have never guessed you're so articulate you're very well spoken.
I would have never thought of you as someone with a rough up bringing due to the fact that in your videos you come across as a very friendly down earth person.
Just keep pursuing your goals and hopefully good will come of it.I truly believe good things happen to good people.
I wish you all the best.

i agree, she is bright and articulate..i never guessed she left school so early either

I'm sure she will make her way.

One more thing as a reminder Yokomi, as previously stated: listen to your heart and do what you like to do, and you will be just fine.

can't wait to hear your exciting story in the future. Please let us know

[Meagan Nutwood]

Yea I actually dropped out in my second year repeating grade 9. I never really went to class...and if i did I wouldn't pay much attention. I rarely did my homework and my teachers were always so puzzled as to why. They always told me they believe I can do the work and that I seemed to be pretty smart. But of course they didnt know what was going on at home on top of what I was dealing with at school with other students.

I actually used to study the japanese language and culture... Which humbled me very much. I guess that is why I named my self Miyoko. I consider myself a pretty "zen" person at essence

[Meagan Nutwood]

i agree, she is bright and articulate..i never guessed she left school so early either

I'm sure she will make her way.

One more thing as a reminder Yokomi, as previously stated: listen to your heart and do what you like to do, and you will be just fine.

can't wait to hear your exciting story in the future. Please let us know

I will be more than happy to share my achievements with you guys!

[fifthace]

I think the whole escort game is a slippery slope, I've had friends that started as shooter girls, then dancer then escort, the one quit because it got to where sex was work, she told me she threw away several good relationships because she didn't want to have sex. She went to a shrink for a few years to get help, she's married now with a kid, her hubby knows she was a stripper but not about the escorting, we are still friends and talk from time to time, she hates that she feels that she's living a lie, but is afraid to tell him the truth. The other I had know for 10 years, we were pals , hung out shot pool, went bowling and stuff but about 2 years after she started escorting she told me that she gets 300 per hour and she thought I should give her something for her time, I did, a quick ride home and I havn't talked to her in 10 years. In the end we only have our family and friends, none of us are going to get out of this life alive....