"Being A Shemale Is Sometimes Very Depressing"

[audrea_tg]

hey barbie!
having read your post i can really relate to some of your feelings,especially the suicide bit. i have been clinically
depressed for 11 years,since age 13, and suicidal for
almost as long. im here if you ever need anything

[Barbie_Swallows]

Hhhhhhhummmmmmmmm, barbie in one of your post you mention that you have brothers and you talk to them all the time ? But this post you says "None of my family won't talk to me u know" ?

Which is it

My 2nd oldest brother George talks to me, he just ain't comfortable seeing me with lot's of cleavage, so i gotta cover myself up when i'm around him, otherwise he'll be talking to be with his back on me, lol. My other 2 brothers have there own issues, and we don't get along at all. My mother won't speak to me, which i don't give a fuck for real, cause she's just always hated me for who i am. She never accepted me even when i was a boy... she was like that's for girls what ur wearing, or that's too gay, don't wear that, people will talk u know. My father on the other hand, speaks to me, he just don't understand the whole transgender thing, but i'm still his kid and he loves me.

I remember when i got my implants last year, he came over a few days later after surgery, and he kept stairing at my cleavege with bandages, he asked me is that real? I'm like yes daddy, i told u over the phone, i'd get them. He's like i didn't believed u, you're always joking around. If i knew if u were serious, i would have driven u to the hospital & back home. That was very nice of him. He just don't like the fact i am over the top looking and not a regular plane jane boring looking tranny, cause i attract alot of attention whenever i'm with him.... people asking if they can take pictures of me.

My Uncle, won't speak to me, cause he's homophobic, but it wouldn't surprise me if he sucked a few cocks during the army in his early 20's while he was still living in Greece. LOL.... My Ant, was like totally blown away when she saw me... she's like where u going looking like that... i'm like to canada's wonderland.... she's like ur wearing way too much makeup. I'm like listen, this is my personal style, and i can't be leaving the house without any makeup anymore, cause i got these now on my chest "BOOBS".... her jaw dropped to the floor. She was like, who the hell payed for ur tits? I'm like i did, by stripping on the internet as an international shemale whore!

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[Admin007]

hey barbie!
having read your post i can really relate to some of your feelings,especially the suicide bit. i have been clinically
depressed for 11 years,since age 13, and suicidal for
almost as long. im here if you ever need anything

Welcome

[wellhungone]

Growing up in the Greek community, I know how we think. That's why I was shocked when you said your brothers speak with you ??

We have a different mentality altogether

[Lothario]

Maybe you need to present yourself better in real life instead of being "a webcam slut"?

Im sure whatever people are at the end of the day everybody wants to be accepted and loved...

[maddplotter]

I hope you find something in life that brings you happiness. I was very depressed for years, never going out, feeling worthless, no friends. Sometimes you have to keep yourself busy like a hobby, pets, or that 1 special best friend. Today, I'm happier because I like to keep myself busy. I don't make much money and learned to handle stressful situations. Bad things will happen in life, I learned that now. I had to learn how to focus overcoming life's bumps, creating goals, no matter how small, and then move on. Good luck and I hope you find something to focus on to make you happier.

[PlatformBootz]

its all about you!

hope your feeling better

[maddplotter]

So, Barbie, are you feeling better? The good weather in Toronto is definitely cheering me up now and it's the long weekend!

[snoodle]

Barbie is in montreal now !

[Barbie_Swallows]

Barbie is in montreal now !

I fucking love Montreal... my first time checking out the city, stayed there for 2 nights *sat/sun* May 17-18... next time i'm going there it will be during the gay pride down there, and stay down there much longer hopefully, like one week. I had a great time down there, people are very sexual, kind, and it's a party town! Everybody is very flirtatious, the club scenes are so much more better then boring conservitive anti-socail toronto! I checked out the campuss strip club and the parking club too on sunday night, so many hot fucking shirtless masculine tanned guys! Which I'm totally into! They are very fashionable and very socailable, talkative down there + lot's of drugs. People seemed to really enjoy there lives down there, they are so down to earth. Montreal a is very european lifestyle. I was staying at a hotel $130/night. Seen a few clients, they sure loved sucking on my big 9 inch cock and fucking me doggy style! Next time i'll be advertising all over, for the next time i'll be cuming in beautiful Montreal... a city to fucking u just fall inlove and to die for! Anyone who hasn't been there, should check out! If ur depressed, then i highly suggest u go there for a visit, and you'll cum back as a different healthier happy positive person! I just hated the fact i was in a car for 6 hours to go and cum back to toronto 2 montreal.

Anyone knows a good price deal to take a much faster way, like bus or train? I also noticed Montreal don't have many shemales down there, but mostly drag queens, and here toronto, there's much more of us. I wasn't able to speak any french whenever people would speak to me, but as soon as i opened my mouth and spoke in english, they were kind enough to cumminicate to me in there broken english. It's sad that toronto is a much bigger city then montreal, but we don't have the club scenes. Over there they party all night, here everything is closed by 2am and the city is dead, All i could tell u is that in Montreal, they sure know how to socailize and party like animals! The first night there, the gay male strip clubs refused to let me inside, cause they told me no girls allowed, even though i told them, i'm a transsexual, they didn't care, they said only sundays. Here in toronto, they let me in during the guy nights. So that was the only down fall, is that shemales are still consider within the gay community culture, yet they view us as females even if we still have our cocks, and are strick of not allowing us on gay nights in the male strip clubs. Anyways, that's all folks.... Muah!
B@rbie Swallows

[snoodle]

Montreal

Hey Barbie,

Im glad to see you like our great city !

Come back soon. We need more T-Girls here !

If you ever need anything when your in montreal, just let me know.

[snoodle]

Next time,

check out club 281.

Its a male stripper club for women, so you can get in anytime.

Most of the strippers are gay so you can probably get them to bang you.

http://www.281.ca/html_en/index_en.htm

[Barbie_Swallows]

Hey Snoodle... thanks for the info... by the way, if i give u free sex, would let me stay with u in ur home for a few nights the next time i cum to montreal? if so, that would be cool

[snoodle]

Haha !

That would be amazing Barbie, but I think my girlfriend would have a problem with that ! But, maybe we can work something out.

[sadeh]

education lesson

OK so let me break it down to you who don' t know what the real meanings are;


1.Transgender, shemale, tgirl, tboy- a genetic male or female living as the opposite gender as daily life.

2. Transexual - a male or female who had sex reassignment surgery to change their gender i.e. shemale without penis and female to male that has grown a penis like extension from the clitorus.

3. CD or crossdresser or transvestite - all of the above must first go through this first step to change or live in their opposite gender.

we are all the same in God's image that was the image of equality.
I have all but love to give...
I support anyone with any personal way they conduct or live their life, because its their right, their life.

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People often ask me, why don't u ever smile Barbie, ur one of the most prettiest shemales i've seen. I'm like oh well geee thanks, but just because i'm above average looking for a tranny, don't mean i must smile all the fucking time. I must say, i been suffering from depression for a very long time, way back as a kid growing up. It's not easy being a transsexual u know, i had many friends rejected me, family members, socail stigma ect... At least i got balls to be who i am today and not give a shit what anybody thinks. How many cross-dresses & drag queens wish to have the guts to get breast implants or a pussy to live there fanatasy dream cum true?

Not that many u know. Most are afraid what other people would think of them for being different. So i'm proud of myself for accepting myself and my dream cum true of being a woman today. I'm depressed, cause my mother won't talk to me, for 1 year now cause her son got fake boobs. Oh well big deal.. cry me river. Deep town it hurts my feelings... i get so emotional inside, i often have tears and lock myself in my bedroom. None of my family won't talk to me u know. They think i'm nuts, crazy, fucked up, mentally ill or whatever, because i got my boobs done and dressing as a woman full time.

Being gay, bisexual, lesbian sure ain't easy, imagine being a transsexual, how much more harder ur life becomes everywhere u go. Even if i was 1OO% passable as woman, which i choose not to do, cause i find it too boring, and i enjoy controversey... it's still gonna be hard to live ur life period for being a shemale. People that like me, only like me in the gay cummunity, outside of it, in the straight world, they rather pretend i'm non exsisting. The world isolates us, ignores us, like we're not human beings. Being a transsexual is sometimes very lonley and depressing, i can understand why most end up doing drugs.

Everytime i sleep with a guy or a fucking male stripper, what do they do? They fuck me, and the next time they see me, they ignore me, i'm a nobody, cause they already had me and there done with me! I guess i'm trying to find true love romance in the wrong places u know. Hmmmmm, transsexuals are the most feminine and the most sensitive people you'll ever meet... so the next time u see a shemale, think twice what u say to her, cause she might end up very suicidal. I feel so empty right now. Like what's the point in working & making money, we're all gonna die one day.

I had a guy tried to pick me up tonight.... turned him down, cause i was trying to be a lady... not an easy way to clean up after with a clenex. I am happy and comfortable for who i am today as a shemale, but still very depressed.... not an easy life u know, we go through so much fucking bullshit in life. We're forced into prostitution cause the fucking world don't accept us, cause we're looked as freak shows, novelty's... wierdo's. That's the truth u know, weather u like it or not. I wish i can get over my depression, cause sometimes i don't feel like there's any value or point of being alive today.

B@rbie Swallows